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zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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I wish that guy peace. It went alright it seemed. I was expecting to be a bit more traumatized, but I believe that since I empathized with his goal of freedom from pain, I had a sense of relief. It was sad though, yes.
 
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LostLily

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Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
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Who was it?
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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never easy to do. it may take time to set in but regardless take care of yourself. if you need to chat don't hesitate to message me šŸ«‚šŸ«‚

you did a very important thing in giving them companionship in those moments. I know hanging up those calls feels surreal as fuck.
 
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mysideofthemountain

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Dec 7, 2024
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That took a lot of courage. How are you doing?
 
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zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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Who was it?
Ah, he said not to say much about him so there's that. He was from this forum though.
That took a lot of courage. How are you doing?
Honestly, I think I am okayish, I guess it "helped" that he did not stream the video, so hearing only audio maybe aided with not being that "affected".
 
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strangelove

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Sorry to disrupt a little bit your topic, but hoping the best for your feelings, and that you don't feel miserable given the whole situation. You did your best staying there. edit: i just read that it wasn't a stream anyways..

If I don't find any partner til the end of this year, I invite someone who might be interested in the SN method to watch me CTB as the OP did.

Of course, I'd have to do some scrutiny not to end up having a video of me killing myself spreading on Telegram, but, if it'll make future suicides to have a more precise overview of the process, therefore, a more precise way to CTB, so let it be.

I am brazilian but I speak english as well, and I'd like both the feeling of someone (or more people) looking over me and also write down what I'm relating as long as I can maintain consciousness or some mental cohesion to help the people who are going after me to know what they are going to deal with.

I messaged a girl who lives near me and was looking for a partner to CTB, if she declines, I'll follow the second plan.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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Rest in peace.
 
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SVEN

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Apr 3, 2023
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Thankyou for giving final companionship.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Lucky him, he is now free from all of the suffering and hardship caused by life. He can now rest in peace
 
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WitheredHeights

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May he find the peace never found in life and may your soul reach where it desires.
 
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Apr 25, 2019
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Sorry to disrupt a little bit your topic, but hoping the best for your feelings, and that you don't feel miserable given the whole situation. You did your best staying there. edit: i just read that it wasn't a stream anyways..

If I don't find any partner til the end of this year, I invite someone who might be interested in the SN method to watch me CTB as the OP did.

Of course, I'd have to do some scrutiny not to end up having a video of me killing myself spreading on Telegram, but, if it'll make future suicides to have a more precise overview of the process, therefore, a more precise way to CTB, so let it be.

I am brazilian but I speak english as well, and I'd like both the feeling of someone (or more people) looking over me and also write down what I'm relating as long as I can maintain consciousness or some mental cohesion to help the people who are going after me to know what they are going to deal with.

I messaged a girl who lives near me and was looking for a partner to CTB, if she declines, I'll follow the second plan.
Sou do Brasil tambƩm
 
nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
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May he rest in peace. How are you doing now? What was his method if you don't mind sharing?
 
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cloudyskye

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Nov 11, 2024
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I wish that guy peace. It went alright it seemed. I was expecting to be a bit more traumatized, but I believe that since I empathized with his goal of freedom from pain, I had a sense of relief. It was sad though, yes.
Taking that responsibility on is a great gift. So many people on here want someone to be with them even if it's on the phone. Just take care of yourself now. It's OK if you have trouble with the situation. Thank you for being there for him.
 
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destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

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Feb 16, 2024
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Just know that you and him share a bond that probably goes back multiple lives. There's few things that can inextricably tie two people together like this.
 
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zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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May he rest in peace. How are you doing now? What was his method if you don't mind sharing?
I am doing alright tbh. There was Heroin and GBL involved, and it was all done in a park at like 3 am.
 
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Jun 2, 2024
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Glad to hear you're doing ok thus far. We're here for you <3
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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How does someone find people to accompany them either on audio or video. It sounds so difficult to find someone for that. But I'd be interested
 

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