Venting Acceptance

[wishiwasalittlecool]

It's so hard accepting that this will be my final year on earth. When I think about it, I wish for more life. More life in the sense that life would actually become worth living. Unfortunately, if I keep living my suffering will increase. I think about the friendships that I should've and could've made, the marriage that I wish could happen, my future children, etc. The worst part is, if I keep living, I still wouldn't have access to that. I'd just be a suffering bum, possibly even going homeless. The more at-terms I become with my suicide, the more peaceful I can become. At least every day is a reminder on how suicide will be the best decision I've ever made.

 

[SufferingDev]

It's so hard accepting that this will be my final year on earth. When I think about it, I wish for more life. More life in the sense that life would actually become worth living. Unfortunately, if I keep living my suffering will increase. I think about the friendships that I should've and could've made, the marriage that I wish could happen, my future children, etc. The worst part is, if I keep living, I still wouldn't have access to that. I'd just be a suffering bum, possibly even going homeless. The more at-terms I become with my suicide, the more peaceful I can become. At least every day is a reminder on how suicide will be the best decision I've ever made.

The thing is - you never really know that - if you still find some hope in living, try it out. CTB can wait. We don't know what will help, that's why I recommend trying all of the routes possible