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ruinedmylife
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- Jan 8, 2022
- 12
just got put on academic suspension for a year, and i really just fucked up my life. i dont know what the fuck im going to do, i cant believe i just sabotaged myself like this. i was already in trechearous waters at school since i was barely affording it and going by with loans -- why would i also perform so terribly academically on top of this...? my family hates me so i dont live with them so college has been my only permanent housing and now im going to be homeless or couch surfing. the friend that i was depending to stay with told me they couldnt commit for more than 2 weeks so i wont even be able to hopefully attend community college. im 20 and im wasting my youth again -- an entire year stripped from me full of experiences -- and fucking over my future. i dont know what the fuck im going to do. i wanna k word myself bc theres literally no hope ahead. god i hate myself. does anyone get it? i dont know what to do. my biggest fear is being a failure. and look here i am.