sssiren
New Member
- Apr 1, 2022
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Hi im new here and i wanted to make a venting post about my situation in general.
First off, i have severe Social Anxiety and i'm extremely "Introverted".
Currently i don't have any IRL friends, i just talk to my online friends via texting on discord but its not too serious, just something i like doing for fun.
I was always the quiet girl in class and all the friends i had were just temporary depending on the class, i never really talked to them due to my shyness, and obiously those friendships faded away by now:(
When i talk to people, even my dad, i can't keep eye contact and its just so painful to think about how i look to them.
Recently i been going for walks around my neighborhood, park.. sometimes its relaxing.. but i can't stop thinking about how other people see me, or what they think.. i know this is like something people always tell u to don't think and don't mind but it's super complicated for me.
Everytime i see guys/girls my age i cant help but compare myself and get sad over how i can't seem to make friends. (also i get really shy and awkward around people my age).
About dating and relationships.. i always been told im cute and i like to remember that, but the past years i've tried to talk people that i like and they seem to like me i just end up always backing out and ghosting them, and i hate this about me..
Something i really like is Fashion and making/buying clothes, i have always been into it, when i dress up and look in the mirror.. im like it looks super cute, but when im walking out its another story, its not like im not comfortable in them but i start to think they suck and i did a bad job. I think lowly of me in all aspects :( and i can't seem to fix this.
Those are some of troubles that i've had for the most of my life.
Nowadays i just sit on the computer thinking about the quick way out, im just getting tired of all this, that i don't think i will ever fix.. im not happy and i can't keep pretending i am happy.
The main reason that is holding me back are my parents, my parents have always been so good to me, and understanding of everything i do, i love them with all my heart.
My dad recently had a heart attack in 2020 and he survived but recently he's not been feeling too good.
I'm an only child so that would mean my mom would probably be alone soon :( and i hate to have that thought.
I'm lonely, and i don't seem to work in the world, i cannot hold a simple conversation or be a normal girl that socializes with other people her age. And i will never fix it i am too scared of everything that involves it:(
This will be my freshman year in college and honestly i don't know if im going to even reach that date, im just coming into a conclusion now, im very sad, and thoughts can't leave me alone lately:(
I have never taken any meds or went to therapy for kind of the same reasons i'm sorry.
If anyone reading this has similar feelings and would like to share help, talk etc. i would appreciate it a lot, thank you<3
First off, i have severe Social Anxiety and i'm extremely "Introverted".
Currently i don't have any IRL friends, i just talk to my online friends via texting on discord but its not too serious, just something i like doing for fun.
I was always the quiet girl in class and all the friends i had were just temporary depending on the class, i never really talked to them due to my shyness, and obiously those friendships faded away by now:(
When i talk to people, even my dad, i can't keep eye contact and its just so painful to think about how i look to them.
Recently i been going for walks around my neighborhood, park.. sometimes its relaxing.. but i can't stop thinking about how other people see me, or what they think.. i know this is like something people always tell u to don't think and don't mind but it's super complicated for me.
Everytime i see guys/girls my age i cant help but compare myself and get sad over how i can't seem to make friends. (also i get really shy and awkward around people my age).
About dating and relationships.. i always been told im cute and i like to remember that, but the past years i've tried to talk people that i like and they seem to like me i just end up always backing out and ghosting them, and i hate this about me..
Something i really like is Fashion and making/buying clothes, i have always been into it, when i dress up and look in the mirror.. im like it looks super cute, but when im walking out its another story, its not like im not comfortable in them but i start to think they suck and i did a bad job. I think lowly of me in all aspects :( and i can't seem to fix this.
Those are some of troubles that i've had for the most of my life.
Nowadays i just sit on the computer thinking about the quick way out, im just getting tired of all this, that i don't think i will ever fix.. im not happy and i can't keep pretending i am happy.
The main reason that is holding me back are my parents, my parents have always been so good to me, and understanding of everything i do, i love them with all my heart.
My dad recently had a heart attack in 2020 and he survived but recently he's not been feeling too good.
I'm an only child so that would mean my mom would probably be alone soon :( and i hate to have that thought.
I'm lonely, and i don't seem to work in the world, i cannot hold a simple conversation or be a normal girl that socializes with other people her age. And i will never fix it i am too scared of everything that involves it:(
This will be my freshman year in college and honestly i don't know if im going to even reach that date, im just coming into a conclusion now, im very sad, and thoughts can't leave me alone lately:(
I have never taken any meds or went to therapy for kind of the same reasons i'm sorry.
If anyone reading this has similar feelings and would like to share help, talk etc. i would appreciate it a lot, thank you<3