Venting a vent about life

[roseleaf]

i've realized how i don't really want to do anything with anyone anymore

why?

the situations it leads to. just today is as chatting with online friends that i've known for a while. they're talking about a football game, to which i say "oh i don't know much about football" i don't know what happened, but suddenly i am called several racial slurs, fat (im underweight), and it just made me feel horrible.

yeah i think i want to die.

and real life is even worse because of how you can tell that they're lying right in front of you. i've never liked socialising but recently it's become worse. i want to get better but at the same time i'm just ready to end everything but i know i cant yet BUT i cant fix myself

um yeah. love you guys

 

[ddonnieddarko]

im sorry man those are terrible friends

 

[HerLastWords]

Hey mate, I'm sorry you had to go through that. Many, MANY people unfortunately just don't think at all before they open their mouthes. And there are no excuses for the way they treated you. I know it's hard but don't listen to them, okay? I bet you're a very cool person.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Society values the dumbest shit. We celebrate and worship grown men getting paid millions of dollars to play sports that essentially have no real intrinsic value to life. We buy bottled high fructose corn syrup water promoted by asshole degenerates known for terrorizing the public with dangerous pranks that make a living off sitting at home and playing video games.

The movie Idiocracy prophesized the current day so accurately. Watching sports and junk like WWE, The Kartrashians and OnlyFans is the equivalent of "Rehabilitation" and "Ow! My Balls". Prime Energy drink is Brawndo. I honestly think the end is closer than everyone thinks. I hope to catch the bus before it gets much worse. And it WILL get worse.

If we're lucky, everything that is developing around the world is gearing us up for a really bad WWII. North Korea, China, Russia and a few Middle Eastern countries join together to nuke the living shit out us. I want to be vaporized so badly.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Oh god, I can really identify with some of this.
I've never been good with people as regards socialising.
I can never figure people out and always seem to be viewed as odd because I suffer from aspergers.
I'm a really quiet and polite person and am kind to others, yet people rarely want to talk to me.
You can never trust people and know what they are thinking.
And they will invariably talk about you behind your back for no good reason.
Sorry you are going through this. People are awful.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrible how many humans are so insensitive and unnecessarily cruel, humans truly are the worst species to me.

 

[doneforlife]

Society does value the dumbest shit. All that media garbage like football , Kardashians , sports, the Royals of England , news ,all that u mentioned and more youtube etc are all garbage distraction addictions . I don't care about any of that garbage. Imo they want us focused on all that garbage so that we don't think about all the horrible things that can happen to a human old age etc , what a human really is , and that we all will die ..... Much more to this. I'm just touching on it

Society does value the dumbest shit to distract us so that we don't find out what reality is .

I'm moving more towards nihilism anyway. The more I think about it and research the more I realize Nothing really matters anyway much less all that media garbage. The only thing that matters to me is avoiding extreme pain and extreme suffering

That's the purpose of life.. avoiding pain and suffering. Anything and everything we do is to reach from point A to
point B all the while avoiding pain and suffering.

Point A : Something which will never be in our control.
Point B : Something which will never be in our control (peacefully)

 

[leavingsoon99]

I felt this. Socializing is glorified on tv and social media. However, it's anything but pleasant to deal with humans. And I've come to realize that most of the cliques you see at social gatherings are a bunch of people faking around one another. The average clique may have two people who are genuinely friends with each other, or at least have a functional relationship with each other. Everyone else is there for self-interested reasons and don't really care about the person standing next to them. I used to love football. Now, I see it for what it is. A scripted sports entertainment event in which average people get a vicarious thrill out of watching rich douchebags win a primal game of territorial conquest while representing their region/city/state. Don't feel bad for not knowing much about it.

I just can't get excited about life anymore. I've come back from adversity, only to be met with more adversity. I'm so sick of life, and I'm too tired to keep playing this game.

 

[roseleaf]

everyone who replied really warmed my heart i love you all and y'all are the most decent human beings i've seen in a long time