not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
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That is what I would like to have but I'm a coward.
So tired and want out of here.
So tired and want out of here.
I hope that someday people in America and around the world can say "I am thankful for the right to die".
You're not a coward. CTB is tough man. If you don't have the right tools it's more like trying to catch a plane that's already taken off (if that makes sense). I hope that someday people in America and around the world can say "I am thankful for the right to die".
I have no fucking energy either. I am also jealous of people who get lucky enough to die from an accidental death. Those people probably wanted to be here... I don't. I would have willingly taken their place. Except for one half-assed attempt probably not even half-assed … more like a quarter-assed attempt … I'm still here.I'm living in misery thinking about my thanksgiving pasts before I totally fucked over my life and this will be a damn hard thanksgiving to get through. I have no fucking energy, I just want a partner to come and figure out a way with me to die. It is so hard to die and I'm jealous of people's accidental deaths at this point. So I can relate. I feel like a failure that I didn't die the first time around and that I screwed my life over so badly. I just want to choke this thanksgiving and die but there is no thanksgiving dinner. Whatever.
Man, I'm glad I'm not the only one who is jealous over accidental deaths.I have no fucking energy either. I am also jealous of people who get lucky enough to die from an accidental death. Those people probably wanted to be here... I don't. I would have willingly taken their place. Except for one half-assed attempt probably not even half-assed … more like a quarter-assed attempt … I'm still here.
My thanksgiving has just been mundane and while most years I spent it with family, the last few years I haven't since I've moved away from home and my siblings have also left the nest. Also, I don't think anyone is a coward for not being able to end it, as it takes serious effort and conviction to override the stubborn bitch called the survival instinct.
This Thanksgiving I'm alone & I'm happy about it. Spending it around family and needing to pretend I'm not miserable is too much.
I hate the survival instinct as well. Also it would be shitty to end my life around the holidays for my family. They would be reminded every year.
At least if I don't do it around the holidays it would be a different part of the year they would have to be reminded. I'm sure the holidays would be rough but it would be worse if I ended it now. :(
If I am still alive by that point (hopefully not), then that would be quite the amazing sight and relief. Who knows, maybe suicide rates will level off or even drop a little bit when people know they can check out without legal and social repercussions.
Man, I'm glad I'm not the only one who is jealous over accidental deaths.
I hear you. While I prefer accidental deaths over shootings, I can see your point. I just read about two car accidents, one where the passenger survived...another where it was a roll over death...I'm like why and how doesn't this just happen to me. It's not guilt inducing for me to be jealous and I'm glad I can post I'm jealous with accidental death here without getting raked over the coals...I'm jealous most of people who get to die instantly and not feel extended pain before they go.
I know that school shootings are terrible but sometimes I think the ones who die fast are lucky that they didn't have to see how shitty life can really get after high school. Some may have it good but many won't.
I hear you. While I prefer accidental deaths over shootings, I can see your point. I just read about two car accidents, one where the passenger survived...another where it was a roll over death...I'm like why and how doesn't this just happen to me. It's not guilt inducing for me to be jealous and I'm glad I can post I'm jealous with accidental death here without getting raked over the coals...
I don't think it will either. I think humanity will be long extinct before ever making euthanasia legal and available worldwide sadly:( Would love to be proven wrong though, nothing would make me happier than to be proven wrong on that!I certainly hope I'm not around til they legalize assisted suicide in the U.S. I don't think it will ever happen.
It would be nice to be able to check out without legal repercussions at least. I don't think it would ever be totally socially acceptable.
I don't think it will either. I think humanity will be long extinct before ever making euthanasia legal and available worldwide sadly:( Would love to be proven wrong though, nothing would make me happier than to be proven wrong on that!