
r.vival
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- Mar 29, 2024
- 40
as much as the breakup i experienced last week. everything hurts. thinking forward. thinking ahead. thinking now. it's not fair at all for him to put me in this place. as a last effort for some peace, i reached out to 2 friends i stopped talking to. i'm atleast okay. i may not experience what i truly want (genuine love) for now. however, i hope i do in the future. i'm a bit afraid i will relapse and do bad things. my mom left today, she's home all the time. if i'm home alone i really don't know.. my ex was my escape for being alone. i love being around people just so my thoughts don't get the worst out of me. but people end up hurting me far worse. i hope my current friends don't end up doing that. i feel stupid to hope again when all i met it more pain before i started hoping. as unfair as it is, i will continue.