Venting a peaceful death would make the best day of my life it seems

[nothingissacred]

usually i can have fun and im able to laugh like any other person but nothing makes me happy.
apart from thinking about a painless, peacefull death.
more specifically the thought of lying in the grass in a warm summer night in the middle of buttfuck nowhere, staring at the night sky and just fading away.
the tears are rolling down my face and im just so... happy?
does anyone else have a similar feeling when thinking about death?

 

[FuneralCry]

I see so much beauty in the thought of being able to leave this world peacefully, it's very cruel and tragic how only the very fortunate ones get to die in such a way, but it's true that in this nightmarish world filled with endless agony and harm, death certainly is the only comfort. There is nothing more ideal than being unable to suffer, free from this burden that we were so cruelly forced to endure. Only death can solve what the true problem is, which is life in itself and I knew that if I had an option of a method as peaceful as Nembutal I would feel so relieved.