I have been here before. It usually ends with a hospitalization. My sanity slips away a little everyday, but I let it. Progressing my career and finishing school are more important than my health. I think about "catching the bus" a little more often every day. It would be so easy. Unfortunately I care for people in my life too much. As this progression happens, that too will disappear. I can FINALLY be done with this existence and I find myself at peace with the process. I hope this will be the time I am will be more careful with my planning. I hope.
I think this is true for most of us.
Not many wake up and think today I will CTB and then actually carry it out.
More often we think about CTB and then SI kicks in and we give life another day. There must be something keeping us here. For me it's like you, other people.
Not many wake up and think today I will CTB and then actually carry it out.
More often we think about CTB and then SI kicks in and we give life another day. There must be something keeping us here. For me it's like you, other people.
