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Craig31ldn
Student
- Oct 22, 2020
- 171
A friend who tried to CTB yesterday told me that when he truly truly truly was faced to with death and truly had the opportunity to die, he experienced some strange and unfathomable feelings . He realized he didn't actually want to CTB and he never could have anticipated the sudden change of heart. He said when you feel like your force to live and things are bad you want to die badly. But when you are finally given the opportunity to go and you think youll believe in your heart youll succeed , the truth rises to the surface. Your heart will reveal the truth. It will tell you whether or not its really your time. Most people who attempt don't succeed for three reasons: because a part of them thiks they'll survive, a part of them wants to survive,or they are impulsively trying to nudify their fustration.
People say well I'll definitely C.T.B on February the January 1st or February the 14th or march the 10th.hmmm really? This is utter bull crap. You can't predict your SI. 85% of succesful suicides aren't well crafted for the medium to long term. A person with a date is perhaps hoping their life gets even worse or their courage grows between now and then to shut their SI off.
They're hoping or having ammunition. An examples like : SN in their cupboard for future use gives them the feeling of control they missed. The power of choice they longed for.
The moral of the story is that thinking or hoping youll CTB is nothing more than a fantasy coping mechanism.
People say well I'll definitely C.T.B on February the January 1st or February the 14th or march the 10th.hmmm really? This is utter bull crap. You can't predict your SI. 85% of succesful suicides aren't well crafted for the medium to long term. A person with a date is perhaps hoping their life gets even worse or their courage grows between now and then to shut their SI off.
They're hoping or having ammunition. An examples like : SN in their cupboard for future use gives them the feeling of control they missed. The power of choice they longed for.
The moral of the story is that thinking or hoping youll CTB is nothing more than a fantasy coping mechanism.