As individuals we tend to pick ourselves apart according to the needs of others. What makes things even more difficult is that our battle is unseen and not understood by others. I don't want to hurt that ones I love and that love me either but regardless of their understanding I will have to make my exit because I'm exhausted and have no life energy left to give. The people around us have energy for life, just like every other person that doesn't battle debilitating major depressive disorder. Their energy runs out at night, they go to sleep and wake up replenished for life again. They can invest their energy into multiple things throughout the days, accomplish things, set goals, spend time with people, make more plans, look forward to the future, socialize normally and get fulfillment until they're tired again and repeat their pattern. All of our energy is invested in survival mode, leaving us depleted for any additional activity or enjoyment. You're not stupid or pathetic at all. We're on borrowed time. If anything, you've already went above and beyond what your mind and body has allowed you according to your situation. We don't have the option to gas up like everyone else. A car can only run on E for so long. They have gas stations on every corner and the option to gas up as soon as the warning light displays. We're in the desert with no gas stations anywhere in sight or existence. We've been running with the low gas warning light on for years and surprisingly have gotten this far. But eventually...