Lupop
Member
- Feb 19, 2026
- 8
Today I got the truth.
I have been just losing time and efforts.
So many complicated and fancy methods, when the truth is so simple...
Drugs, poisons, helium, carbon monoxide, plastic bags, and so on...All useless, all nonsense. At least to me, now.
So what about pain? I've been in pain and struggles so many times, in my life... So, what will change a few minutes more or less?
A way that's the simplest, cheapest and easiest.
Just take your preferred tree, and a good rope. Maybe a wooden box too will help.
I'll Just do it at night, in a place where nobody sees me or finds me, before I'm actually done
That will not fail. And no way back, if you really want to quit.
And I really want to.
OK, it will hurt for some minute, what would it change on my pain account!?
So, the main problem is fixed, finally.
Now I just need to prepare, I need to put in order, to clean up for the ones who stay after me. That's a little tricky, cuz I have someone.
I'll need to explain, I'll need to inform, I'll need to let something for them. That's it. Letters, money, directions, suggestions.
It will take some time, but some more months will be fine.
I'll let you know, mates.
But to you, if you can wait, if you still have goals, please, fight.
I fought all my life long.
It's just that fighting now is useless.
I'm old, tired, really seek, and I lost my only important woman.
No more beautiful goals to conquer.
All beauty has passed, it's behind me.
I should and could have died a hundred times, but I fought hard, I was lucky and I'm still here.
Now staying means only pain, sorrow, and tears.
For me and for those who care for me.
No more meaning.
Now is the right time.
I have been just losing time and efforts.
So many complicated and fancy methods, when the truth is so simple...
Drugs, poisons, helium, carbon monoxide, plastic bags, and so on...All useless, all nonsense. At least to me, now.
So what about pain? I've been in pain and struggles so many times, in my life... So, what will change a few minutes more or less?
A way that's the simplest, cheapest and easiest.
Just take your preferred tree, and a good rope. Maybe a wooden box too will help.
I'll Just do it at night, in a place where nobody sees me or finds me, before I'm actually done
That will not fail. And no way back, if you really want to quit.
And I really want to.
OK, it will hurt for some minute, what would it change on my pain account!?
So, the main problem is fixed, finally.
Now I just need to prepare, I need to put in order, to clean up for the ones who stay after me. That's a little tricky, cuz I have someone.
I'll need to explain, I'll need to inform, I'll need to let something for them. That's it. Letters, money, directions, suggestions.
It will take some time, but some more months will be fine.
I'll let you know, mates.
But to you, if you can wait, if you still have goals, please, fight.
I fought all my life long.
It's just that fighting now is useless.
I'm old, tired, really seek, and I lost my only important woman.
No more beautiful goals to conquer.
All beauty has passed, it's behind me.
I should and could have died a hundred times, but I fought hard, I was lucky and I'm still here.
Now staying means only pain, sorrow, and tears.
For me and for those who care for me.
No more meaning.
Now is the right time.
