A few questions mostly about antiemetics, and some venting

[Rue89]

I have a few questions and also just need to vent a bit. I'll ask the questions first so you can ignore the rest if you want.

Well I decided on SN and I ordered it. It should arrive Feb 27-March 2. I bought the Loudwolf SN from Amazon. Does anyone know what type of packaging it comes in? Is there anything identifying what it is? My big fear is that my mom or brother will see it first and get suspicious.

I still need to get an antiemetic. Is there a legit online pharmacy that sells antiemetics without a prescription that'll take credit card or PayPal? I've seen alldaychemist mentioned on here a few times, but I don't know how to use their payment methods. I'll figure one of them out if I have to, but I'd rather not have to stress about that.

Meto or Domperidone? (Or something else?) I know meto is more popular and supposedly more effective, but it also seems to have a lot more bad side effects. Or are they not as bad or common as the internet makes them seem? How long do side effects usually last? I'm wondering cause I know I should test a dose of it sometime before I CTB and i need to figure out how much time I need alone just in case something does happen. I know I probably sound kind of paranoid about side effects but i just want to be prepared. About a month ago I took a double dose of benadryl and it was awful. Now I'm a lot more careful with medications, especially ones I've never taken before.

Ok now I need to vent.

I guess I should just admit it. I'm scared. Don't get me wrong, I 100% want to do this. Problem is I'm afraid my anxiety, the main thing that has pushed me to this point, is going to make it difficult. Actually I guess it already has. It's not really death that I'm afraid of. It's the process to get there. I suppose mainly the physical pain and just the unknown. But also the possibility of failing and having to live with the consequences - possible permanent/long lasting physical and mental damage, dealing with my family, inevitable psych ward, etc. I feel like a coward. I wish I could just turn off my brain and stop thinking about these things. I'm going to see my neurologist on Feb 28 and she's going to prescribe me something for my anxiety. She almost did over the phone a few weeks ago, but decided she wanted to talk with me in person first and thought I could handle it until my appointment. Yeah right.. I can handle my anxiety when I'm at home, like I've been doing for months. Well DVR finally started the ball rolling with helping me with my job search, which would include job shadows and temporary work experiences. We had a meeting and my anxiety must have really shown because my job developer suggested that maybe I wasn't ready for work. Well we ended up deciding I wasn't ready and closed my case. But yeah, I can totally handle it... Whatever, maybe that was for the best. With that not taking up any of my time and that stressor out of the way I'll be able to focus more on my CTB. I really hope the medication I'll get will help with this. I came to another realization today - I wish I didn't have to die alone. I know that's stupid and selfish, and would be impossible. Ugh I hate that I'm so not prepared yet and don't have any of my supplies and may not be close to getting an antiemetic, idk I hope they're easier to get than it seems. I just want all this shit to end.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Check the listing if it comes through Amazon or is shipped independently. If it's shipped by Amazon, the packaging won't reveal anything. If it's from the distributor, hopefully someone else has bought from them and can answer.

 

[k75]

I purchased from that seller through a different site. It was shipped in an unremarkable bubble mailer with nothing to indicate the contents. The only slightly suspicious thing is the name on the return address was Professor something.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Meto does have side effects and they are fairly common. It really doesn't matter which one you use as long as it does the right thing. Meto seems to be easier to come across, at least that's how it seems anyway. Any side effects will be gone once the SN is ingested also. Depends if you are doing the 3 day or stat dose I guess.

 

[one4all]

I purchased from that seller through a different site. It was shipped in an unremarkable bubble mailer with nothing to indicate the contents. The only slightly suspicious thing is the name on the return address was Professor something.

Mine came the same way. I don't think the return address on mine had anything odd on it. But the packaging has been burned after receiving it, so i can't check

 

[Rue89]

I purchased from that seller through a different site. It was shipped in an unremarkable bubble mailer with nothing to indicate the contents. The only slightly suspicious thing is the name on the return address was Professor something.

Perfect. I've gotten stuff from Amazon with some weird names on the return address, so that shouldn't be suspicious at all.

 

[k75]

Meto or Domperidone? (Or something else?) I know meto is more popular and supposedly more effective, but it also seems to have a lot more bad side effects. Or are they not as bad or common as the internet makes them seem? How long do side effects usually last? I'm wondering cause I know I should test a dose of it sometime before I CTB and i need to figure out how much time I need alone just in case something does happen. I know I probably sound kind of paranoid about side effects but i just want to be prepared. About a month ago I took a double dose of benadryl and it was awful. Now I'm a lot more careful with medications, especially ones I've never taken before.

I don't recommend doing a test dose of Meto just because you have a chance of side effects with each dose. Just because the first did nothing is no guarantee the next won't as well. So obviously, the less you ever take, the better.

That said, I don't believe you need to worry much. Yes, there is a risk of side effects. Some people say they experienced bad ones right away. But everyone is different.

I have gastroparesis, and I'm prescribed Meto 2-3 times a day to help empty my stomach. I've had to take it steady since January. Zero side effects for me. My doctor says be cautious, but it's usually long term, high dose use that causes most issues.