A bit of Geometry (Advice on Jumping)

[Una Nancy]

Hi everyone,

I've been a lurker for more than a week, got subscribed today. I won't go into details but I simply can't live. You know the phrase "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"? Well in my case, it's more like a permanent problem, and it's been years and years I've been like that. So, I'm determined to die, and I figured the easiest solution where I live is jumping from an old building where nobody works or lives anymore. I've already tried overdosing on drugs, partial hanging, it's not really my thing.

I've included pictures of the building in the spoilers below. I would be thankful if you could help me choosing whether or not it's a good location, since I don't really want to end as a crippled person for life, or sustain brain injuries. I mean, on another hand, I don't really care, I think I've reached a point where it doesn't even matter as long as I try to end my suffering, but it'd suck to end up handicapped.

I think the top floor is between 10 and 15 m / 30-50 feet. Now I've read stories of people dying from heights like this one, but I'm aware there are risks of surviving. I think I wouldn't mind agonizing on the floor for several hours, since I've decided to jump during the night, when nobody goes out, especially in the general lockdown where I live in. I wouldn't mind as long as I die in the end. But I don't want to fall and then realise that my injuries are not life-threatening, and lie down on the ground all night.

There's another problem. The ground immediately below is not hard, it's grass. Which means I'll have to gather speed if I want to fall on a really hard surface. The thing is I'd like to jump backwards. I don't know if there's a better chance of success, you tell me, all I know is that I'll try to fall on my head, and I'm afraid I won't be able to do so if I fall forwards. I'm afraid I will fall on my feet if I fall forwards. But the problem is that, as you can maybe see, there's not much space to jump. Sure, some windows are broken, but it doesn't leave much space.

So... yeah... I don't really have a better method at the moment, and my suffering becomes greater and greater day after day. So since I'm expecting to jump from this building one day or another, I've come to this forum to ask you if you think it's worth a try, or if it's too dangerous in terms of success. Thanks

EDIT: Pics deleted for privacy reasons (though I'd modified them)

 

[BPDbitch]

Sorry you've found yourself on SS. Unfortunately I don't think this would be high enough and you are more likely to seriously injure yourself than die. Please reconsider this. We're here for you.

 

[Squiddy]

Sorry you've found yourself on SS. Unfortunately I don't think this would be high enough and you are more likely to seriously injure yourself than die. Please reconsider this. We're here for you.

I have to agree. I would try another method like SN

 

[LMLN]

I'm sorry for your pain. No, that is not nearly high enough. I'm afraid you would end up with some permanent damage but still be alive.

 

[Mr. ‘K so?]

Something like this. I've seen free runners backflip from 50 ft onto grass,land on their feet, and spring backwards. You can take a lot of punishment dude

 

[Una Nancy]

Thanks everyone. Guess I'll live still a while then.

 

[Una Nancy]

Two weeks later, and I've just read that someone in my country succeeded in CTB by jumping from a height of 4 floors
What's intriguing is that the young man killed himself just the way as I intended to.

Like, I intended to jump from 4 floors, too, and I kid you not, exactly at the same time in the night.
Plus, this student (may he rest in peace) seemed to suffer from the same problems as I do, for the most part.
It's like fate sends me these signs to tell me that it's OK, that I should try again to CTB by jumping.

In the meantime, I've tried therapy, and I'm not sure it's something that's fit for me.
I've had already two appointments in two weeks, and my next one is tomorrow, since, well, apparently my case is "urgent".
But two weeks later, and I still want to kill myself. All we do is chat and my therapist doesn't give me solutions, and we keep talking about things that have nothing to do with my actual state of mind.

So yeah I'm pretty hopeless, and I wonder if I should try again to jump.
I mean, if it was a success for this student, why shouldn't it be the same for me?
Oh, and meanwhile, I've tried to CTB with partial suspension, but I keep failing in blocking my carotid arteries. All it does is making my head explode, even though once I swear I've felt my body go, and my head was alright. Maybe I should give it another try, too.

I don't know, what do you guys think?
A life of suffering awaits me because of a long-lasting condition I have, and I've lost all of my friends, on top of the fact I've never had any family.
Why couldn't I succeed in jumping, too?

 

[jgm63]

Two weeks later, and I've just read that someone in my country succeeded in CTB by jumping from a height of 4 floors
What's intriguing is that the young man killed himself just the way as I intended to.

Like, I intended to jump from 4 floors, too, and I kid you not, exactly at the same time in the night.
Plus, this student (may he rest in peace) seemed to suffer from the same problems as I do, for the most part.
It's like fate sends me these signs to tell me that it's OK, that I should try again to CTB by jumping.

In the meantime, I've tried therapy, and I'm not sure it's something that's fit for me.
I've had already two appointments in two weeks, and my next one is tomorrow, since, well, apparently my case is "urgent".
But two weeks later, and I still want to kill myself. All we do is chat and my therapist doesn't give me solutions, and we keep talking about things that have nothing to do with my actual state of mind.

So yeah I'm pretty hopeless, and I wonder if I should try again to jump.
I mean, if it was a success for this student, why shouldn't it be the same for me?
Oh, and meanwhile, I've tried to CTB with partial suspension, but I keep failing in blocking my carotid arteries. All it does is making my head explode, even though once I swear I've felt my body go, and my head was alright. Maybe I should give it another try, too.

I don't know, what do you guys think?
A life of suffering awaits me because of a long-lasting condition I have, and I've lost all of my friends, on top of the fact I've never had any family.
Why couldn't I succeed in jumping, too?

I suppose a lot might depend on how you land, eg if you could be certain of landing on your head, then the chances of it being fatal might be dramatically increased.
One question (of many) would be : Can you be sure that survival instinct might not cause you to assume a less damaging impact position at the last moment, etc, so that you don't end up landing on your head.
From the height you are stating, I would think there is a significant risk of injury and lasting severe damage, but without being fatal....

Some general jumping notes :
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...garding-suicide-by-jumping.35434/#post-656674

I think you would need to find a better location if jumping were your intended method.

There also appear to be 2 jumping megathreads :
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-megathread.10250/
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-megathread.11905/

 

[jgm63]

P.S. The benefit of using much higher heights is that it doesn't matter how you land, so you no longer need to worry whether you will land on your head....

 

[Una Nancy]

Thank you really for all of these pieces of information. I guess falling from a height of 12m is definitely not worth it