quietwater
delusional poet
- May 2, 2023
- 78
I'm planning to CTB on November 5, this is my deadline.
My father sold the apartment I lived in with my mother and we're going to move in with her boyfriend November 2, but I'll be away with my friends and boyfriend, and I'll come back November 4. I am so tired of living with her and living in my abusive household, I can't do this anymore. I am tired of surviving idling in life, I want to live, REALLY live, or die now, but there's no hope for me and dying is my best option.
I wish I could say it wasn't.
I'll try to change my life in the days I have left, but if I can't I'll kill myself on November 5.
My preferred method would be dying in the sea, but I don't really know how to make sure I don't fail, so I chose jumping as my method. Where I live there's a high skyscraper, and I'll try to see if I can access it and jump from there. I've already checked how it's tall and everything. If I can't I'll find something else, I'm not picky on the method, everything accessible is good. I'll probably choose the train method, but I'll have to check my train station to see where to jump.
I'm writing this post as a reminder for myself, and a source of comfort. Sorry to bother, I apologize if you've read everything till here.
My father sold the apartment I lived in with my mother and we're going to move in with her boyfriend November 2, but I'll be away with my friends and boyfriend, and I'll come back November 4. I am so tired of living with her and living in my abusive household, I can't do this anymore. I am tired of surviving idling in life, I want to live, REALLY live, or die now, but there's no hope for me and dying is my best option.
I wish I could say it wasn't.
I'll try to change my life in the days I have left, but if I can't I'll kill myself on November 5.
My preferred method would be dying in the sea, but I don't really know how to make sure I don't fail, so I chose jumping as my method. Where I live there's a high skyscraper, and I'll try to see if I can access it and jump from there. I've already checked how it's tall and everything. If I can't I'll find something else, I'm not picky on the method, everything accessible is good. I'll probably choose the train method, but I'll have to check my train station to see where to jump.
I'm writing this post as a reminder for myself, and a source of comfort. Sorry to bother, I apologize if you've read everything till here.