Discussion 48 Hour Protocol

[persepexa]

So as of 8am this morning I have started the 48 hour protocol. I plan to CTB at midnight tomorrow so it will technically be my 30th birthday.

I feel sad if I'm being honest. I never wanted my life to end up this way. But I know it's the right decision for me. I hate myself and what my life has become. I'm a pathetic mess and it's all my fault. I ruined every aspect of my life and I never recovered from it.

On the one hand I want to do it now. On the other hand I think I was right to choose the 48 hour protocol as it gives me 48 hours to process this.

Is there anything I should do before I go? I'll be writing messages to a few people in my life, and calling some people one last time if I can't see them face to face. I said goodbye to my only friend yesterday. She didn't realise it, she thought I was just being sappy. I told her I loved her and was really glad we were friends. I'm just trying to think now if there's anything else I should be organising. I of course will give my room a bit of a clean for when I am found. Not sure what else there is to do.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Is there anything I should do before I go? I'll be writing messages to a few people in my life, and calling some people one last time if I can't see them face to face. I said goodbye to my only friend yesterday. She didn't realise it, she thought I was just being sappy. I told her I loved her and was really glad we were friends. I'm just trying to think now if there's anything else I should be organising. I of course will give my room a bit of a clean for when I am found. Not sure what else there is to do.

Maybe write about it, share some cool facts about urself that u forgot to share here?
My room also needs a little clean tbh, tks for reminding me.

 

[soul2realm]

I am sorry that you have to take this decision. But just to clarify, it is often the kind and benevolent souls that tend to judge themselves as a mess. I don't know what to say here. If you'd like to talk, please feel free to do so. Sending you loads of love and blessings.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Just remember that we won't judge regardless of whether you delay, continue or cancel the protocol.

Sending virtual birthday cake from Australia.