4 days is all I’m giving it

[Yeet_Me_Away]

If my life doesn't turn around in 4 days, I'm going through with my CTB plan.

Managed to get SN but if it doesn't arrive then it's onto plan B and I'm fucking out of here.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

What's plan b?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck.

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

What's plan b?

SN is plan A. Hanging is plan B.

 

[fleetingnight]

I hope something improves for you. I'm sorry it's gotten this bad

 

[locked*n*loaded]

How long you been waiting on the SN? Could be held up in customs? Is 4 days enough time to wait for that to clear up? How did you arrive at 4 more days? Hey, I'm about as pro-choice as you can get, and believe your decisions about your own life and death are entirely your own. Just more curious about this seemingly arbitrary 4 day limit. But, if that is what works for your situation, I wish you luck and peace.

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

How long you been waiting on the SN? Could be held up in customs? Is 4 days enough time to wait for that to clear up? How did you arrive at 4 more days? Hey, I'm about as pro-choice as you can get, and believe your decisions about your own life and death are entirely your own. Just more curious about this seemingly arbitrary 4 day limit. But, if that is what works for your situation, I wish you luck and peace.

So, I get you, let me lay it out…

The SN supplier is a local lab supplier. They just have to get the SN from another city delivered to them so that I can collect - they said it will take 2 days.

In the meantime, I'm taking 1-2 days to get my wife's nest egg together; and also 1 day to say goodbye (secretly) to those that I love.

Just enough time to get the SN regimen underway if it does arrive, and if not, enough time to get rope and get plan B set up.

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

Update: It was my old man's birthday on the 29th so I couldn't go through with things Thinking about tomorrow, been keeping dopamine down (no alcohol, porn, any of that stuff) to help with the SI. I've kicked away a chair before without thinking before and I'll do it again

 

[sugarh1gh]

I hope you find peace in whatever you do.

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

I hope you find peace in whatever you do.

Thank you. I've been to this place before so I'm not so much afraid of death - just want to ensure certainty this time. It's been so turbulent and I have tried so hard for so long. This life aint for me

 

[sugarh1gh]

Thank you. I've been to this place before so I'm not so much afraid of death - just want to ensure certainty this time. It's been so turbulent and I have tried so hard for so long. This life aint for me

Yeah I think I am most afraid about not being successful at one go.

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

Yeah I think I am most afraid about not being successful at one go.

I've tried once, my ancestors seem to have had another plan... not this time. I will try twice I swear if things go the same way they went last time. Lol