Siamese Believe
Student
- Dec 8, 2025
- 132
My knife arrived, it's as sharp as I envisioned. Also the shape would make it go in easier. But I still wanna go about this purely logically, I still need this to be the absolute last resort for a quick death if I cannot go with the other options.
But I've just been thinking, I only have 3 options right now. Knife, partial hanging, or ordering SN. I don't know.
I really don't wanna go 2 days without eating for SN to work more painlessly. Food is the only thing that helps my mood. Plus I've heard that each person's body seems to react differently to SN.
Plus I've also heard of people watching SN death videos and saying it looked painful and uncomfortable.
Partial hanging is just flat out risky, even if I barricade the door. It can take 30 minutes or longer to fully die. Plus if you try to ask others here for specific questions not covered in any of the guides when it comes to a partial hanging setup, those threads often go ignored.
But knife to the heart, that's completely fatal, no question about it, it's quick and has a very short window for survival. Assuming no hesitation + large knife.
Especially with the specific conditioning of how I'd go about it, which only further increases the lethality. Barricading the door, etc.
But yeah, that's where I'm at, conflicted. Plus I've still been enjoying my money. But sooner or later, the dopamine is going to wear off and I won't be able to put this off anymore. I've been stuck in thought.
I was tempted to go for SN but I've been hearing some not so pleasant things.
But I've just been thinking, I only have 3 options right now. Knife, partial hanging, or ordering SN. I don't know.
I really don't wanna go 2 days without eating for SN to work more painlessly. Food is the only thing that helps my mood. Plus I've heard that each person's body seems to react differently to SN.
Plus I've also heard of people watching SN death videos and saying it looked painful and uncomfortable.
Partial hanging is just flat out risky, even if I barricade the door. It can take 30 minutes or longer to fully die. Plus if you try to ask others here for specific questions not covered in any of the guides when it comes to a partial hanging setup, those threads often go ignored.
But knife to the heart, that's completely fatal, no question about it, it's quick and has a very short window for survival. Assuming no hesitation + large knife.
Especially with the specific conditioning of how I'd go about it, which only further increases the lethality. Barricading the door, etc.
But yeah, that's where I'm at, conflicted. Plus I've still been enjoying my money. But sooner or later, the dopamine is going to wear off and I won't be able to put this off anymore. I've been stuck in thought.
I was tempted to go for SN but I've been hearing some not so pleasant things.
