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lifeistryingme2020
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- Nov 6, 2020
- 15
I've had enough.
I thought that maybe, maybe my feelings might change but they haven't. I'm not depressed, I enjoy things and find peace within the chaos but this is not my place anymore. I feel peaceful when I think about the end, happy even.
I know some people believe suicide is selfish or irresponsible, but I feel my time was cherichised, and those who love me will understand, and hopefully accept it. It's not their fault I'm defective. It's been years and yet it lingers, feels like fate. I can't see it any other way.
It's early right now, around 2:30am, the store opens at 7am. I'm going to CTB with a rope, would it be too suspicious to buy alcohol so early? I think that and some seroquel would be calming but I dread the taste of alcohol, nothing tastes worse than puking meds and vodka. I remember for my 15th I was depressed and tried to kill myself too, hopefully the tradition is successful this time. Never tried just a rope.
Anyways,
Thanks for listening!
I thought that maybe, maybe my feelings might change but they haven't. I'm not depressed, I enjoy things and find peace within the chaos but this is not my place anymore. I feel peaceful when I think about the end, happy even.
I know some people believe suicide is selfish or irresponsible, but I feel my time was cherichised, and those who love me will understand, and hopefully accept it. It's not their fault I'm defective. It's been years and yet it lingers, feels like fate. I can't see it any other way.
It's early right now, around 2:30am, the store opens at 7am. I'm going to CTB with a rope, would it be too suspicious to buy alcohol so early? I think that and some seroquel would be calming but I dread the taste of alcohol, nothing tastes worse than puking meds and vodka. I remember for my 15th I was depressed and tried to kill myself too, hopefully the tradition is successful this time. Never tried just a rope.
Anyways,
Thanks for listening!