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Wukash
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- Sep 4, 2020
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When they said the world was going to end in 2020, they were right - and in many ways it has. How can we go on with the amount of horror, pain, suffering, corruption, death, starvation and a Leninist-Marxist inspired Totalitarian Government (With charactaristics) now seemingly calling the shots across the world.
The Gates', Fauci's, Hitler's, Zedong's... The list seems to go on and on. I'm very much a "live and let live" person, until those people start impinging on my life, and then I get mad.
Then I ask myself... Are these people really bad? Is it just my own pig-headedness that doesn't accept change (Maybe because it's always bad?) that leads me to this conclusion. After all, as reprehensible as these people are in the eyes of many, are they not ultimately Human Beings operating within an already fucked financial and political system. They are going about their lives, doing what some/many of us are doing, trying to make money, caring for loved ones etc.
Everything is just so hard to accept right now, and it's not getting any easier. I have made the decision to come off all pharmacutical drugs, to abstain from caffeine (decaf tea is ok) and sugar (tho still have bread sometimes). I also have 2 weeks recovery from a compulsive pornography and masturbation habit that would otherwise destroy me. All this just means that everything is raw at the moment, and I feel everything particularly strongly.
While I am distracting myself, life is bearable, then I start hearing what is really going on in the world and I cannot cope with it. What can we do? Protest? Start activism? Write to our Representatives (If we are in a democracy). When I feel like this, I feel that nothing will every really change, therefore am I only torturing myself by opening my ears to what is really going on in the world... Is ignorance really bliss?
I have a supportive employer (to a point) and a supportive friend - who I care about a great deal (so much so I've been lying and cheating to them about important mutual financial matters). I have been immoral, deviant and just an all out horrible person. I sometimes feel that is who I am, and the effort to change to become nice is not worth it because people will just fuck me over anyway.
It's just the state of the world at the moment which just makes me so depressed and despondent. I know there is no antidote to that other than Serenity.
I don't really know what I hope to gain from writing this, and I haven't really thought it through greatly - perhaps it will resonate with someone and they would share their thoughts.
That said I feel a little better having written it and posted it, perhaps this is the therapy that I am missing (Until I can obtain some Hallucinogenic Indole Alkaloid).
Signing off for now,
Wukash.
The Gates', Fauci's, Hitler's, Zedong's... The list seems to go on and on. I'm very much a "live and let live" person, until those people start impinging on my life, and then I get mad.
Then I ask myself... Are these people really bad? Is it just my own pig-headedness that doesn't accept change (Maybe because it's always bad?) that leads me to this conclusion. After all, as reprehensible as these people are in the eyes of many, are they not ultimately Human Beings operating within an already fucked financial and political system. They are going about their lives, doing what some/many of us are doing, trying to make money, caring for loved ones etc.
Everything is just so hard to accept right now, and it's not getting any easier. I have made the decision to come off all pharmacutical drugs, to abstain from caffeine (decaf tea is ok) and sugar (tho still have bread sometimes). I also have 2 weeks recovery from a compulsive pornography and masturbation habit that would otherwise destroy me. All this just means that everything is raw at the moment, and I feel everything particularly strongly.
While I am distracting myself, life is bearable, then I start hearing what is really going on in the world and I cannot cope with it. What can we do? Protest? Start activism? Write to our Representatives (If we are in a democracy). When I feel like this, I feel that nothing will every really change, therefore am I only torturing myself by opening my ears to what is really going on in the world... Is ignorance really bliss?
I have a supportive employer (to a point) and a supportive friend - who I care about a great deal (so much so I've been lying and cheating to them about important mutual financial matters). I have been immoral, deviant and just an all out horrible person. I sometimes feel that is who I am, and the effort to change to become nice is not worth it because people will just fuck me over anyway.
It's just the state of the world at the moment which just makes me so depressed and despondent. I know there is no antidote to that other than Serenity.
I don't really know what I hope to gain from writing this, and I haven't really thought it through greatly - perhaps it will resonate with someone and they would share their thoughts.
That said I feel a little better having written it and posted it, perhaps this is the therapy that I am missing (Until I can obtain some Hallucinogenic Indole Alkaloid).
Signing off for now,
Wukash.