Michael_the_ratman
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- Jul 20, 2024
- 33
As I'm writing this, I only have 20 days left until I CTB. I want to know, what would you guys do if you were in my situation? What activities or actions would you do? I want to try to enjoy my last days being alive.
I don't know how to feel. I'm very happy that my pain and suffering will be over. But I'm also scared. What's gonna happen to me? Will dying hurt? I'm also so fucking scared my friend "saves me". As he knows the date and he can totally get to my house. I'm hoping he forgets, but for now I plan on pretending my life got amazing and that I figured out I didn't actually wanna die. I'll make some things up… do y'all have things to say. Like inspiration? I'm a terrible liar so I need to find believable things.
I don't know how to feel. I'm very happy that my pain and suffering will be over. But I'm also scared. What's gonna happen to me? Will dying hurt? I'm also so fucking scared my friend "saves me". As he knows the date and he can totally get to my house. I'm hoping he forgets, but for now I plan on pretending my life got amazing and that I figured out I didn't actually wanna die. I'll make some things up… do y'all have things to say. Like inspiration? I'm a terrible liar so I need to find believable things.
