Venting 2 more days

[IAmSam]

2 more days and i will go with SN.
I feel both relief and sadness.
I feel like a little urge to do iT now but i want to see someone first at thursday and prepare proper.

My timeline is

8.15pm olanzapine
8.30pm paracetamol
9pm 25g SN with 50ml water

I've been on this site a good year. But recently Made an account.

Im totally ready to go even with tears in my eyes.

Sorry for my bad english

 

[SerialFailer]

Isn't 25 g more likely to make you puke and probably less lethal than 15 g?
I don't think olanzapine is as good an antiemetic as the suggested options, but if you're really ready you must be prepared for vomiting and have multiple cups set up.

 

[Rockman]

Good luck. How much you weight? Do you measured dose of sn?

 

[IAmSam]

Good luck. How much you weight? Do you measured dose of sn?

98kilo. I'll measure with a tablespoon

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Isn't 25 g more likely to make you puke and probably less lethal than 15 g?
I don't think olanzapine is as good an antiemetic as the suggested options, but if you're really ready you must be prepared for vomiting and have multiple cups set up.

Some have survived with 15-17 g, although in some cases amount of water played a role. When researching the method, it's good to look at Stan's guide, the SN FAQ, the anecdotal accounts of successes and failures, and the PPH.
@IAmSam, while I'm sad you're at this point, I also had a response of: You did! You made your plan! Even if you decide to live, you proved you can accomplish something difficult.


@IAmSam:

No matter what you decide or what you do, I sincerely wish for your well-being and all the best possible. Sending you a hug. This is hard stuff, the planning, the doing, the living, the choosing. Lots of compassion and respect to you.

 

[IAmSam]

@IAmSam:

No matter what you decide or what you do, I sincerely wish for your well-being and all the best possible. Sending you a hug. This is hard stuff, the planning, the doing, the living, the choosing. Lots of compassion and respect to you.

Thank you

 

[IAmSam]

I can't sleep. :s :s
I'm so nervous

 

[IAmSam]

My last 24 hours on earth.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I don't blame you for being nervous even if you think this is what you want. I hope you make the right decision for you.

 

[IAmSam]

Isn't 25 g more likely to make you puke and probably less lethal than 15 g?
I don't think olanzapine is as good an antiemetic as the suggested options, but if you're really ready you must be prepared for vomiting and have multiple cups set up.

In stans guide iT is on the 3th place.
I researched iT. And iT seems
olanzapine is very good.

 

[IAmSam]

Shit. Someone warned the hospital im in. Clearly my address was seen on the picture i posted of my packadge. Now they took my SN and i can't die tonight

Edit: erased two Words.
GoodPersonEffed is right. Its my OWN damn fault

 

[Walilamdzi]

Fuck SS. Someone warned the hospital im in. Clearly my address was seen on the picture i posted of my packadge. Now they took my SN and i can't die tonight

Well it was readable from the picture, that must be frustrating. It could be prolife guests browsing the forum etc.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Fuck SS. Someone warned the hospital im in. Clearly my address was seen on the picture i posted of my packadge. Now they took my SN and i can't die tonight

Fuck SS? I know you're frustrated, but you're the one who posted the photo with the address on a public forum. That doesn't mean turn it around and say fuck yourself, it just means you made an error, you're human, and now you've got to deal with it. Sending an empathetic hug for making a mistake and having to deal with it. I really do care about how bad that sucks.

 

[IAmSam]

Fuck SS? I know you're frustrated, but you're the one who posted the photo with the address on a public forum. That doesn't mean turn it around and say fuck yourself, it just means you made an error, you're human, and now you've got to deal with it. Sending an empathetic hug for making a mistake and having to deal with it. I really do care about how bad that sucks.

You're right. I erased the nasty Words

 

[I screwed up]

Sorry to hear ur situation ... Guess it is normal to make such mistakes specially when one us in the kind of mental state you are in ... it will be tough for u to procure SN again ?? Feel for u brother

 

[SerialFailer]

In stans guide iT is on the 3th place.
I researched iT. And iT seems
olanzapine is very good.

I hadn't read stan's guide yet and only went for PPH, so I wasn't sure.
Good that I know about it now.
I'm sorry you got confiscated.

 

[foreverbroken28]

How did you get SN in the hospital? The hospitals here won't even let us have a phone. (US). Sorry about your misfortune, man.

 

[IAmSam]

How did you get SN in the hospital? The hospitals here won't even let us have a phone. (US). Sorry about your misfortune, man.

I orderd with my iPhone en iT was deliverd at the receptionist We Can keep our phones. Im in an open unit.

Im a girl

 

[ssaaahmo]

sending you hugs i hope you're doing at least a little bit better today