forbidden freedom
Member
- Oct 12, 2020
- 7
Soon it will be my 10th anniversary of my first serious attempt. I've had two other bad attempts about 5 years ago.
I'm struggling with those failures.
I'm struggling with those failures.
happiestman
Member
- May 8, 2020
- 52
Metalhead
Born slippy
- Sep 21, 2020
- 192
Do you struggle to come to terms with the fact that you failed, or is it that so much time has passed you by since it ?
Or maybe it's a combination?
I've had 2 failed attempts and sometimes it can feel so surreal when I look back on them.
Or maybe it's a combination?
I've had 2 failed attempts and sometimes it can feel so surreal when I look back on them.
happiestman
Member
- May 8, 2020
- 52
Look like many has failed attempts. its bit discouraging for me. may I ask these attempts are done with proper planning or...
Metalhead
Born slippy
- Sep 21, 2020
- 192
Both attempts were done with proper planning and research, one thing that you can never underestimate is how strong the survival instinct can be. Feel free to either DM/PM if you want to know more information.
forbidden freedom
Member
- Oct 12, 2020
- 7
Over does was #1. Some thing made me very angry and they think the adrenaline saved me. I was found the next day still unconscious on the floor. #2 was an insulin over dose. I grabbed the slow release pen instead of the instant. The insulin wasn't mine. I spent 3 days in iCU. #3 was tourniquet around neck. Was found "cyanotic" and "black" in color as the hospital staff found me.what u tried. why it failed?
I hate that I fail. I'm scared to fail because I end up locked in a psych hospital. I'd rather be alive than trapped in that space helpless to end the suffering
Solid planning, poor execution of the plans because of unclear thinking as I neared the end. I can't seem to overcome the distortions of reality and problems thinking as I try to execute a plan. Probably going to move towards an automated process and a hotel to insure proper amounts of time uninterrupted.
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