goodoldnoname923
Wanting to find peace
- Mar 28, 2024
- 534
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The hacker who broke into my accounts. They shared my self-injury online. My depression. My thoughts of suicide. Anything that was very much a part of me. Even if it's unethical, my "friends" were the ones who kept this from me. They asked pointed and personal questions to get reactions out of me. Other games. Asking if I lived in adjacent towns. Doxxing me. Locked me out of my college-related personal account. and a great deal more. The people that surround the abuser facilitate the violence. People are drawn to abusers who harm their victims. Pack mentality. To be really honest, I believe that everyone who allows and supports it is just as evil. They claim that abuse is wrong, including racism, sexism, and any other form. That is, until the objective of their actions is any of those things. Klan garments then start to appear. It's all virtue signaling.
1MiserableGuy
Specialist
- Dec 30, 2023
- 367
Played music with this guy who, slowly and methodically over the course of two years, revealed he was a neo nazi. He was phenomenal at manipulating people into thinking being targeted was just customary horseplay between good friends. It got to be dangerous enough I had to file a restraining order against him. He still targets people for his amusement to this day.
goodoldnoname923
Wanting to find peace
- Mar 28, 2024
- 534
Can you abuse me for what i did to my best friend in the whole wide world
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 19,421
I mostly only meant I'm abusive to myself. I hate him (me) more than anyone else in the world, even other abusers are heroes to me in comparison.
Even when I'm abusive and cruel to other people I can only do so through neglect and indifference but I sure do have a lot of that to give out. I'm sorry if that's not what you're looking for.
Myforevercharlie
Global Mod
- Feb 13, 2020
- 2,620
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 1,316
My ex-stepmother
She would trash the place, throw objects at my dad, punch and hit him, insult him, use my half-brother as leverage against him, would come home late at night just scream at him claiming that he isn't my brother's true father, threw objects at my brother, hit him, whipped him with a belt (didn't realize that there was anything wrong with that when I was younger), threw him at a door, and threw him onto the ground right before physically attacking my mom. She, thankfully, to my knowledge has stopped doing this shit to him, probably because she'd get in trouble for it. She also once kicked him out of his apartment, leaving him having to couch surf for several days.
She also used to harrass my mother a lot and would call the police on her for all sorts of dumb reasons. She had this really weird obsession with her and hated her. She also attacked her twice in one day for no reason.
On the less serious and less abusive side, she would try to turn me against my mother, once she got upset at me for being a bit of brat and on the taxi ride home threatened to break off her engagement with my dad, claiming that she didn't want to deal with bratty step-daughter or something along those lines and made me beg for her not to. She told me that my only loved me because of things she get from using me. She screamed at me after finding out that I told the police about what her throwing my brother and guilt-tripped me into revoking my statement the next time I got interviewed by the social worker. Once she threatened to cut off all of my hair out of nowhere while we were walking to the barbershop to get my brothers hair done and then walked up to that lady at the front and told them to shave off all my hair. She made me cry and beg her not to. She would do my hair secretly cut off large portions of my hair under the guise that she was "cutting off dead ends". She also sent my mom a bunch of vile text messages insulting both her and me and caused me to not be allowed to go to my dads place. She's also randomly grabbed and squeezed/attempted to grab and squeeze my books back when I was in middle-school on three separate occasions if I remember correctly (I know it's not that of deal, but it's kind of weird). Those are just a few examples of some of the stuff she has done. There's probably more that I can't remember since I don't think back on this stuff too often. I'm more focused on the things she's done to my dad, mother, and brother, since they were all significantly worse.
She was a weird and horrible lady and I eventually had enough with putting up with her near the end of grade 8. I haven't spoken to her since I was around 14 and I'd like to keep it that way. She has her nice aspects, but I don't think that those are enough to outweigh the bad.
She would trash the place, throw objects at my dad, punch and hit him, insult him, use my half-brother as leverage against him, would come home late at night just scream at him claiming that he isn't my brother's true father, threw objects at my brother, hit him, whipped him with a belt (didn't realize that there was anything wrong with that when I was younger), threw him at a door, and threw him onto the ground right before physically attacking my mom. She, thankfully, to my knowledge has stopped doing this shit to him, probably because she'd get in trouble for it. She also once kicked him out of his apartment, leaving him having to couch surf for several days.
She also used to harrass my mother a lot and would call the police on her for all sorts of dumb reasons. She had this really weird obsession with her and hated her. She also attacked her twice in one day for no reason.
On the less serious and less abusive side, she would try to turn me against my mother, once she got upset at me for being a bit of brat and on the taxi ride home threatened to break off her engagement with my dad, claiming that she didn't want to deal with bratty step-daughter or something along those lines and made me beg for her not to. She told me that my only loved me because of things she get from using me. She screamed at me after finding out that I told the police about what her throwing my brother and guilt-tripped me into revoking my statement the next time I got interviewed by the social worker. Once she threatened to cut off all of my hair out of nowhere while we were walking to the barbershop to get my brothers hair done and then walked up to that lady at the front and told them to shave off all my hair. She made me cry and beg her not to. She would do my hair secretly cut off large portions of my hair under the guise that she was "cutting off dead ends". She also sent my mom a bunch of vile text messages insulting both her and me and caused me to not be allowed to go to my dads place. She's also randomly grabbed and squeezed/attempted to grab and squeeze my books back when I was in middle-school on three separate occasions if I remember correctly (I know it's not that of deal, but it's kind of weird). Those are just a few examples of some of the stuff she has done. There's probably more that I can't remember since I don't think back on this stuff too often. I'm more focused on the things she's done to my dad, mother, and brother, since they were all significantly worse.
She was a weird and horrible lady and I eventually had enough with putting up with her near the end of grade 8. I haven't spoken to her since I was around 14 and I'd like to keep it that way. She has her nice aspects, but I don't think that those are enough to outweigh the bad.
Lady Laudanum
Student
- May 9, 2024
- 152
One of my exes was arguably worse than my dad, who molested me when I was a kid.
My ex threatened to ruin me financially as well as make sure there is no chance of me having a future career in the subject I studied (won't say exactly what it is but it's one of the more employable majors and leads to a well-paying white collar job). He threatened to tell everyone about secrets that could genuinely ruin my life if certain people found out. And he did end up telling some of his friends after I left him.
He rarely got physically violent with me but he would purposely drive recklessly with me in the passenger seat, telling me he was going to crash the car and kill both of us. There was an instance when he did that and then when we got to the place we were going to, he immediately flipped a switch and begged me for forgiveness.
My ex also didn't respect my bodily autonomy. He would forcefully take my clothes off and try to rape me, until the one time I stood up for myself. He knew that I wanted to have my tubes tied and he would purposely shoehorn it into conversations in public. Once, he literally got on his knees and begged me while crying crocodile tears, when I was at a pretty big event related to my job and he was my +1.
The thing I hated the most was how he would always compare me to other girls, saying how they were smarter, more talented, prettier, skinnier, etc. I went from around 100 pounds to 80 over the course of less than a year (I'm female and of average height), and it seemed like he would practically salivate over how I looked when I was severely underweight. He seemed to get off on me being so frail that he could easily overpower me and bend me to his will.
I gained some weight on my own after I was threatened with hospitalization and on the verge of losing my physically demanding job due to underperformance. I also started working out and got much stronger. He became scared of me after that.
I promised to stay with him when he moved across the country to continue his education. Then, once I knew I was at least physically safe from him, I left him and never looked back. It was wrong for me to bait and switch him, but I thought that was the safest way to leave.
My ex threatened to ruin me financially as well as make sure there is no chance of me having a future career in the subject I studied (won't say exactly what it is but it's one of the more employable majors and leads to a well-paying white collar job). He threatened to tell everyone about secrets that could genuinely ruin my life if certain people found out. And he did end up telling some of his friends after I left him.
He rarely got physically violent with me but he would purposely drive recklessly with me in the passenger seat, telling me he was going to crash the car and kill both of us. There was an instance when he did that and then when we got to the place we were going to, he immediately flipped a switch and begged me for forgiveness.
My ex also didn't respect my bodily autonomy. He would forcefully take my clothes off and try to rape me, until the one time I stood up for myself. He knew that I wanted to have my tubes tied and he would purposely shoehorn it into conversations in public. Once, he literally got on his knees and begged me while crying crocodile tears, when I was at a pretty big event related to my job and he was my +1.
The thing I hated the most was how he would always compare me to other girls, saying how they were smarter, more talented, prettier, skinnier, etc. I went from around 100 pounds to 80 over the course of less than a year (I'm female and of average height), and it seemed like he would practically salivate over how I looked when I was severely underweight. He seemed to get off on me being so frail that he could easily overpower me and bend me to his will.
I gained some weight on my own after I was threatened with hospitalization and on the verge of losing my physically demanding job due to underperformance. I also started working out and got much stronger. He became scared of me after that.
I promised to stay with him when he moved across the country to continue his education. Then, once I knew I was at least physically safe from him, I left him and never looked back. It was wrong for me to bait and switch him, but I thought that was the safest way to leave.
leavingthesoultrap
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- Nov 25, 2023
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