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wherearewenow
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- Nov 23, 2023
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Hello all. My name is Eleanor, i'm a 19 year old and I have been thinking about suicide on and off for years now, but I've only begun to truly consider it this past year. I'm a trans woman in college, and I need to know if I should just end it.
I have failed all of my classes this semester out of pure laziness. I am pretty pathetic. I made a few friends this year but not enough to feel loved. I live in Ohio and I'm terrified about what that means for the future given I'm trans.
I lost pretty much all of my high school friends through doing something pretty terrible, and I don't blame them for cutting me off. In fact, while I don't want to go into detail here, that's a lot of the reason I feel like I should kill myself. I have destroyed so many friendships. I have basically no aspirations for life. I feel like 19 years is enough.
I am lucky enough to have a pretty good family. My mom supports me and loves me and my sister is alright. I haven't talked to my dad in years, however, and that's also a lot my fault.
My entire life feels at a standstill. I don't have any hopes for the future. Should I look into ending it?
I have failed all of my classes this semester out of pure laziness. I am pretty pathetic. I made a few friends this year but not enough to feel loved. I live in Ohio and I'm terrified about what that means for the future given I'm trans.
I lost pretty much all of my high school friends through doing something pretty terrible, and I don't blame them for cutting me off. In fact, while I don't want to go into detail here, that's a lot of the reason I feel like I should kill myself. I have destroyed so many friendships. I have basically no aspirations for life. I feel like 19 years is enough.
I am lucky enough to have a pretty good family. My mom supports me and loves me and my sister is alright. I haven't talked to my dad in years, however, and that's also a lot my fault.
My entire life feels at a standstill. I don't have any hopes for the future. Should I look into ending it?