Life is screwing me

[lonely247]

I asked my manager today at work how my performance is and she said that I need to pick up speed and banter more which I already knew about the bantering. She then mentioned she hopes I can do that because she doesn't want to fire me but I also know they are looking for more employees soon so I feel like no matter what I'm about to get fired. If I get fired I'm going to go in debt by thousands and loose my vehicle. I'm trying to go as fast as I can but just can't keep up which sucks. My ADHD is killing me and my doctor wants me to get a blood test because he thinks I may have anemia which also sucks because then I guess I'll always feel tired and I just can't concentrate with the ADHD. I've done plenty of ADHD meds and have had a lot of bad side affects. Maybe I should look into another type of medicine for that but at this point I'm thinking it would just be easy to hang myself. I have the rope and all ready to go in my closet. I'm tired of feeling like shit all the tune and being stressed out with work. Been thinking either I could hang myself or just go 150 MPH on my motorcycle to kill myself.

 

[LilysAngel]

Honestly I feel ya about the work thing. I thought I was going to CTB last Saturday. I spent the entire day Friday stressed at work. It's insane how much work can take a toll on somebody. The chokehold a solid job has on us.

Honestly those communes are looking more & more appealing. lol.

 

[lonely247]

Honestly I feel ya about the work thing. I thought I was going to CTB last Saturday. I spent the entire day Friday stressed at work. It's insane how much work can take a toll on somebody. The chokehold a solid job has on us.

Honestly those communes are looking more & more appealing. lol.

What's holding you back from CTBing? I really want to CTB I have wanted for a while and have tried about 5 times but they always end up in failure

 

[LilysAngel]

What's holding you back from CTBing? I really want to CTB I have wanted for a while and have tried about 5 times but they always end up in failure

I got frustrated when something didn't go as planned and simply gave up. Probably, it could have worked still. I was just over it & wanted to sleep.

Nothing is currently holding me back tho.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Don't really know much about adhd meds, but I do know that many meds can have extreme fatigue as a side effect. And the same meds that make one person have fatigue has no effect on someone else. It's just the way it works. If the anemia test turns out negative, you might want to look into your meds. Maybe a meds change could help a bit.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Anemia is often a temporary condition of just having low iron, so it's good your getting a blood test to see if that's causing lethargy. If you do, they'll likely just put you on a supplement to get your iron levels where it should be. If the job you have is in too fast-paced environment, can you look for a lateral move to a different workplace/job where speed isn't an issue or is this a career you're in?

 

[lonely247]

Anemia is often a temporary condition of just having low iron, so it's good your getting a blood test to see if that's causing lethargy. If you do, they'll likely just put you on a supplement to get your iron levels where it should be. If the job you have is in too fast-paced environment, can you look for a lateral move to a different workplace/job where speed isn't an issue or is this a career you're in?

As long as the medicine they give me has zero chance of weight gain then I'll take it because if it even says chance of weight gain and I find out later then I just cold turkey stop any medicine that does that.

Yeah I could get a different job but it just takes me a while down here in FL. When I worked and lived up in IL I got a ton of job interviews and all super fast. It takes forever down here to even get an interview.

I did something dumb and ordered a ton of clothing from Trapstar london and didn't realize until I got them and wore them and all but I spent close to 2k on the clothes and I also have 8k in my motorcycle payment plus another 2k in debt for a car that I'm also trying to pay off. I wish I knew how to spend my money wisely