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heydude56

Student
Aug 13, 2025
116
There's just something so peaceful about slowly losing consciousness knowing that I'll soon be dead while listening to my favorite music or watching videos I like.

I really hope I'll be able to obtain SN but it's so difficult in my country..
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
795
Unfortunately it's not as peaceful as you think.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
196
Unfortunately it's not as peaceful as you think.
I agree it can be distressing, but if done properly death can be achieved with minimal distress and suffering. Yesterday I found a video of a Chinese young woman who died by SN, and she lost consciousness in around 11-12 minutes after ingesting it. I wonder if she followed protocol. This is the first time I've seen this video. I wonder if she was a member of this forum at some point.

https://watchpeopledie.tv/h/suicide/post/344117/suicide-video-of-drinking-sodium-nitrite
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
196
It seems that it kinda depends.. but I'm honestly fine with some level of pain
Yes it depends. If the SN is pure, you've taken antiemetics so that most of the SN can stay inside your system and take a good amount of benzos before the meto, then it can be not so awful experience. If the SN is not pure, you don't use any meto and puke most of the SN then the outcome will be either a failed attempt or prolonged suffering before death.
 
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heydude56

Student
Aug 13, 2025
116
Yes it depends. If the SN is pure, you've taken antiemetics so that most of the SN can stay inside your system and take a good amount of benzos before the meto, then it can be not so awful experience. If the SN is not pure, you don't use any meto and puke most of the SN then the outcome will be either a failed attempt or prolonged suffering before death.
Is benzo necessary..? I'm asking cause meto seems pretty easy to obtain but I'm not so sure about how easy it is to obtain benzo
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
196
Is benzo necessary..? I'm asking cause meto seems pretty easy to obtain but I'm not so sure about how easy it is to obtain benzo
It's not necessary. I included it in my protocol with the sole purpose of it to calm me down, and lessen my survival instinct when the time comes. My benzo will be Xanax.
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
196
Meto is pretty necessary tho, right?
Yes, it's quite important. I wouldn't take my SN without any meto. Meto is easy to acquire. I acquired it by lying to my doctor that I had a nauseating migraines.
 
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orbwithinorb

Student
Aug 4, 2024
133
Unfortunately it's not as peaceful as you think.
Sadly this. I wish I wasn't such a bitch that this method would be an option for me but I'm not trying to feel any pain or discomfort. I just want to slowly pass out and never wake up - which could be done with Barbiturates or some stupid strong synthetic opiate. But those are not as accessible as SN.
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Warlock
Jul 9, 2025
795
Sadly this. I wish I wasn't such a bitch that this method would be an option for me but I'm not trying to feel any pain or discomfort. I just want to slowly pass out and never wake up - which could be done with Barbiturates or some stupid strong synthetic opiate. But those are not as accessible as SN.
Yeah we are all dreaming about barbiturates here 😭
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Warlock
Jul 9, 2025
795
What is barbiturates? Is it impossible for regular individuals to obtain this?
It's what vets uses to euthanize animals. Unfortunately we cannot get it. I've been scammed (a lot of money lost) so don't try to buy it (even on darknet). It was still findable some years ago but now it's almost impossible. You'll need to to go Mexico or Peru and bribe a vet, and it's not 100% sure you can get a source.
 
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heydude56

Student
Aug 13, 2025
116
It's what vets uses to euthanize animals. Unfortunately we cannot get it. I've been scammed (a lot of money lost) so don't try to buy it (even on darknet). It was still findable some years ago but now it's almost impossible. You'll need to to go Mexico or Peru and bribe a vet, and it's not 100% sure you can get a source.
Is it the same as N?