happyangel02121991
Happy Angel
- Nov 28, 2025
- 13
Hey, I want to start by saying I'm new here and I've dealt with suicidal thoughts and attempts for over a decade now (since I was a child under 10). For a while I kept my suicidality a secret but then I have sought out help (medication, therapy, hospitalisation, community groups), but it seems my mind is still set on ending my life, or at the very least having a working solution ready. From my previous attempts, I know suicide is easier said than done. It needs planning or great luck(which I wont rely on) and so I've decided my chosen method to be something like Sodium Nitrite. The problem is, I don't know where to source it as I'm located in Sydney, Australia. I'm tech savvy so if there is a marketplace on the dark web, I would like to be directed there. Or otherwise, I am open to suggestions, feel free to PM me.
I have no planned date, but I want my hands on SN. I don't know if I'll really act on it yet, maybe just being close to it is enough for me, but I do know I won't stop thinking about how to get my hands on SN. If anyone knows a source, please share it, no scammers.
I will feel more assured knowing I have a tangible way out, and perhaps that will be enough for me. Please help me out.
I have no planned date, but I want my hands on SN. I don't know if I'll really act on it yet, maybe just being close to it is enough for me, but I do know I won't stop thinking about how to get my hands on SN. If anyone knows a source, please share it, no scammers.
I will feel more assured knowing I have a tangible way out, and perhaps that will be enough for me. Please help me out.