
dead lightbulb
consciousness is a curse
- Oct 8, 2022
- 52
I mean while prepping or before getting to a state of needing emergency care.
My sister found me yesterday, told my other siblings but kept it from my dad because it was his birthday. None seem to care much, and I've stayed in my room all day except to go out for my dad's birthday. My reaction was anger, not really because I was found but because I was found by someone who doesn't care about me and at the least cares about my cbt attempt. She cleaned my room all yesterday and today to I think feel better about herself. Before this no one knew I was suicidal. I don't know what the future holds because it's only been a day since the attempt, but I'm just crossing my fingers for now that she doesn't rat me out to anyone else.
My sister found me yesterday, told my other siblings but kept it from my dad because it was his birthday. None seem to care much, and I've stayed in my room all day except to go out for my dad's birthday. My reaction was anger, not really because I was found but because I was found by someone who doesn't care about me and at the least cares about my cbt attempt. She cleaned my room all yesterday and today to I think feel better about herself. Before this no one knew I was suicidal. I don't know what the future holds because it's only been a day since the attempt, but I'm just crossing my fingers for now that she doesn't rat me out to anyone else.