What holds you back?

[readytoGO!]

For me, the thought of someone seeing my messy house makes me embarrassed. That and the discomfort/pain. But I'm getting to the point where I want to go so badly those things don't matter as much.

 

[Hollowman]

My mom's still alive.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

Suicide is stupid. I would rather be alive and miserable and not be a piece of biological garbage

 

[Pluto]

 

[HangMan123]

Suicide is stupid. I would rather be alive and miserable and not be a piece of biological garbage

How insensitive. Are soldiers who died in war pieces of "biological garbage?"

—answering OP—
I feel guilty for my family and my dog.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

How insensitive. Are soldiers who died in war pieces of "biological garbage?"

Yes they are. They chose to be that it was by their own will to give up their life knowing they will be nothing more than "biological garbage" once they are disposed

 

[instormdrains]

God is anti suicide and advised Elijah and Moses not to kill themselves when they begged him for death. Even if life is horrible He calls on us to pick up our cross anyway and keep it pushing. If God wasn't real I wouldn't care enough to keep living

 

[HangMan123]

Yes they are. They chose to be that it was by their own will to give up their life knowing they will be nothing more than "biological garbage" once they are disposed

Yeah, I feel mean saying this, but you're—or rather, your way of thinking is—absolutely vile.
"Disposed?" Are you okay? Sane? You do know that human lives aren't trash to be thrown away, right?
And surely you know that soldiers are drafted and forced into war against their consent?

 

[FoxSauce]

My sisters, freinds and family. I dont wanna hurt anyone.

Scared of what comes after death.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

Yeah, I feel mean saying this, but you're—or rather, your way of thinking is—absolutely vile.
"Disposed?" Are you okay? Sane? You do know that human lives aren't trash to be thrown away, right?
And surely you know that soldiers are drafted and forced into war against their consent?

I never said anything about human lives being trash, I stated the opposite I said that once you are dead your corpse is nothing but "biological garbage" no different than the meat you have in your refrigerator.

 

[HangMan123]

I never said anything about human lives being trash, I stated the opposite I said that once you are dead your corpse is nothing but "biological garbage" no different than the meat you have in your refrigerator.

Even from a biological standpoint, organic matter is a vital component of every ecosystem. I won't bother explaining since you should have learned this in 2nd grade, unless you need me to?
I guess my real problem is the term "garbage." That's just plain disrespectful.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

Even from a biological standpoint, organic matter is a vital component of every ecosystem. I won't bother explaining since you should have learned this in 2nd grade, unless you need me to?
I guess my real problem is the term "garbage." That's just plain disrespectful.

You think my use of the term "garbage" is wrong. But isn't that what corpses basically are? useless, rotting, pathetic. We have no use of them hence we tuck them away in pretty little graves so our eyes can't see the vile nature of their completely utterly disgusting prolonged existence, it's due to the aching need for romanticizing and idealizing the macabre to eliminate the fear and anxiety of it.

 

[vira]

I dont have the means to kill myself. No gun, rope, SN, ability to secure ligature, anchor point, opioids, literally nothing lol

 

[HangMan123]

You think my use of the term "garbage" is wrong. But isn't that what corpses basically are? useless, rotting, pathetic. We have no use of them hence we tuck them away in pretty little graves so our eyes can't see the vile nature of their completely utterly disgusting prolonged existence, it's due to the aching need for romanticizing and idealizing the macabre to eliminate the fear and anxiety of it.

Well, they're not "useless," as I've already said. Rotting? Sure. As for pathetic, I don't see how inanimate things can be pathetic? I also don't see how something useful can be considered garbage.
And I'm sorry that my comments have been mean and conceited. I've just had a really rough night, and I know that's no excuse. I just wanted to apologize. I was angry because of past experiences, and it's wrong that I took it out on you. I'm sorry.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

Well, they're not "useless," as I've already said. Rotting? Sure. As for pathetic, I don't see how inanimate things can be pathetic?
And I'm sorry that my comments have been mean and conceited. I've just had a really rough night, and I know that's no excuse. I just wanted to apologize. I was angry because of past experiences, and it's wrong that I took it out on you. I'm sorry.

It's alright, It was rather fun talking to you! Stimulating one might say. Thanks for the Good Talk

 

[Chemi]

This website to be honest. It has been lots of fun talking with like-minded people, and for the first time in my life, I feel understood. Ain't a long-term fix I think, but it's a nice way to pass the time.

 

[вечный сон]

Suicide is stupid. I would rather be alive and miserable and not be a piece of biological garbage

You'll be 'a piece of biological trash' eventually anyways, ya know. Also, trash doesnt exist in nature. Everything is being used until it's completly recycelt. The 'trash' your speaking of feeds trillions of other life forms and brings New life in many different forms.

Well, they're not "useless," as I've already said. Rotting? Sure. As for pathetic, I don't see how inanimate things can be pathetic? I also don't see how something useful can be considered garbage.
And I'm sorry that my comments have been mean and conceited. I've just had a really rough night, and I know that's no excuse. I just wanted to apologize. I was angry because of past experiences, and it's wrong that I took it out on you. I'm sorry.

You made a good point and there's no reason to excuse yourself. The other guy was being insensitive and should apologize, not you.

Anyways, wish you both good holidays my guys.

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

You'll be 'a piece of biological trash' eventually anyways, ya know

Yes I do know that but it doesn't mean I should strive to become that piece of biological garbage anytime soon

 

[вечный сон]

Yes I do know that but it doesn't mean I should strive to become that piece of biological garbage anytime soon

You kinda Sound like one already

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

You kinda Sound like one already

That's humorous

 

[GoneFromRevolution]

Lack of a reliable method (too overweight to reliably hang myself) and I have some things to look forward to. Happy that suicide exists as a safety valve for when things inevitably become too much for me to bear.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Suicide is stupid. I would rather be alive and miserable and not be a piece of biological garbage

So you'd rather continue to suffer and rot away in a miserable senseless shit life which has no point no nothing but just pain. A huge pain that starts once you wake up instead of ending this bullshit?
Are you stupid? Why are you even on a suicide forum then? To see others become "biological garbage "? Are you some pro lifer who wants to make other people here feel bad about their wish to commit suicide?
No suicide is not stupid but you really are stupid.
In many cases suicide is absolutely legitimate and every human being who has enough who don't want to stay here in this disgusting world has the right to do it.
I think its better for you to create your own new forum called:


" don't commit suicide because its "stupid" instead continue your life, continue the suffering because hey you don't wanna end up as "biological garbage" even though once I die with 80 years I'll also end as "biological garbage" "

 

[Maxwell_Edison]

So you'd rather continue to suffer and rot away in a miserable senseless shit life which has no point no nothing but just pain. A huge pain that starts once you wake up instead of ending this bullshit?
Are you stupid? Why are you even on a suicide forum then? To see others become "biological garbage "? Are you some pro lifer who wants to make other people here feel bad about their wish to commit suicide?
No suicide is not stupid but you really are stupid.
In many cases suicide is absolutely legitimate and every human being who has enough who don't want to stay here in this disgusting world has the right to do it.
I think its better for you to create a new forum called:
" don't commit suicide because its "stupid" instead continue your life, continue the suffering because hey you don't wanna end up as "biological garbage" even though once I die with 80 years I'll also end as "biological garbage" "

Well the Ad Hominem aside you really miss my point here, I was saying that living miserably and suicide are both equally stupid and I prefer to do the other stupid thing, like you said life is shit but death is no better it's just as bad if not worse, It's like jumping out of a burning plane without a parachute just because it's gonna crash that's clearly irrational but so is sitting in the plane and waiting till it crashes. And to answer your question about why I am on a suicide forum it's because I was suicidal for a while but I am not currently suicidal because if I don't have a reason to live, I don't have any reason to die either.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

This website to be honest.

Same! I'm pretty sure if I hadn't found SS, I'd most likely be dead already.
My mom is also still alive and she wouldn't survive this if I CTBed. Currently, I'm hardly suicidal, though. Life's not too bad, and I started to enjoy things again. That doesn't mean CTB is off the table bc circumstances may change for the worse again, and then CTB is definitely an option.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

A connection to one person, a possibility of a future. And this website too. I survived a whole year being here. Still suicidal, still thinking of ctb and my SN every day. Wondering if it's not the better option. Because this is not a life anymore, it's torture. But somehow I can hold on till tomorrow, another day, for now.

 

[Dante_]

Can we not use opportunities like this to throw insults at each other, thank you.

 

[thisIsNotEnough]

It's too early to be completely sure that my reasons are really permanent, and if it's going to get better anytime soon I wouldn't feel justified to ctb. I'm just barely an adult idk how the rest of my life will go.

I'm struggling to articulate myself well (I sound super incoherent compared to my baseline) and I'd like to be able to write nice heartfelt notes for the few people who have been lights in my life, a goodbye to this forum, and an explanation of my reasons in hopes that people would see my choice as rational given my circumstances, not one I made impulsively or lightly. though I know suicide=irrational to most so prob a fool's errand outside of this forum

As a trans girl the idea of being misgendered and deadnamed at my funeral by my family. Not being able to speak up for myself anymore. Sad fate. I'd like to die in a body I'm comfortable with too so may wait until I can get bottom surgery if it's bearable enough

I don't want to die, just a means to an end, so SI is strong, can barely sh anymore even

 

[angrybakunawa]

My mom's still alive.

Exactly this. I don't want her to be heartbroken.

 

[TooMuch.]

Suicide is stupid. I would rather be alive and miserable and not be a piece of biological garbage

Then why are you on this site?

 

[Reywashere]

I have not found the right place to do it. I don't want to ctb at my apt or my sister gonna be the one to find my body. I don't want traumatiz her.