want to CTB asap

[lkjhgfdsa1]

my next opportunity is tomorrow morning
i want to do it so badly

 

[dggtscccvfd]

my next opportunity is tomorrow morning
i want to do it so badly

What's your method?

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

What's your method?

full suspension

 

[dggtscccvfd]

full suspension

Good luck!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

thanks.
i feel like i turned into you these days
saying the same things over and over again

 

[iloverachel]

Good luck my friend, all the best.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Don't let this place influence your decision. Take a break and don't let yourself come here. Just stay off your phone period. Go back to pen and paper unless you have to email or look something helpful up. Good luck.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Don't let this place influence your decision. Take a break and don't let yourself come here. Just stay off your phone period. Go back to pen and paper unless you have to email or look something helpful up. Good luck.

On the contrary, this place is holding me back
It's the only thing that is distracting me

 

[DefinitelyReady]

On the contrary, this place is holding me back
It's the only thing that is distracting me

Subconsciously giving you courage to ctb?

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Subconsciously giving you courage to ctb?

I learned a lot on this site and still do,
But the amount of posts on failure is what holds me back
So I found the way to ctb, but I cannot execute

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I learned a lot on this site and still do,
But the amount of posts on failure is what holds me back
So I found the way to ctb, but I cannot execute

I've seen your posts... Just sounds like you still have a shot to get out and live...

No offense and not to be pro-life :/

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I've seen your posts... Just sounds like you still have a shot to get out and live...

No offense and not to be pro-life :/

I think it was a delusion
I keep deluding myself

There is no way out
except death

 

[rozeske]

I have to agree with @DefinitelyReady (which rarely happens :) ) but from all your posts, you seem to be spiraling. I honestly believe you should give yourself sometime to really think things through on what you want and what you need. Not being a prolifer but this as an irreversible decision that requires the need to be well thought out. You can ctb anytime, the buss isn't going anywhere.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I've seen your posts... Just sounds like you still have a shot to get out and live...

No offense and not to be pro-life :/

I have to agree with @DefinitelyReady (which rarely happens :) ) but from all your posts, you seem to be spiraling. I honestly believe you should give yourself sometime to really think things through on what you want and what you need. Not being a prolifer but this as an irreversible decision that requires the need to be well thought out. You can ctb anytime, the buss isn't going anywhere.

Thank you for the kind words.

I regret writing my delusional posts on accepting this life. I am overtaken my regret, lack of motivation, and sadness every time I look at myself.

I never wrote all the reasons for me wanting to ctb on this site, and I am too embarrassed about my maxx self-sabotage…

The only solution I have is to accept life as it is, but I am not able to. It's too hard. I cannot accept it. I don't want to go through this difficult time.

CTB is the easy way out for me. And I'd really like that. An easy way out. Although CTB is not easy at all. Which is why I am scared and thought about accepting this life, but I have no confidence is myself anymore. I do not know who I am, and the person I've become, I hate her.

 

[rozeske]

I really am sorry you are feeling this way. I understand none of it is an easy thing to do. You seem to be overwhelmed by everything. It's ok to have doubts, it's ok to hesitate. We are all going through it. I just personally believe that you should just take a few moments to stop and think about things. Be kind to yourself and give yourself sometime time to see things clearly. Nothing is good when it is rushed and decided in a haste. Don't stress yourself more than you already are. Let things happen when they happen, when you are at peace with yourself.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I want to ctb asap too but I have no courage for it. Either way, I hope you find peace soon

 

[consideringawayout]

If you don't have any health issues, then it's probably needs careful thinking before making a decision. Psychological issues could resolve over time.