Venting viscera

[acidkitsune23]

i feel disgusting i want someone to hurt me to hurt with me I want to cut until my arms and legs are covered in blood and I cant feel I want to drink until my organs fail I want someone to slam my head into a wall until its a bloody pulp I want it to be over someone please anyone please jusdf listen to me love me I want someone to hold me I feel miserablke i want to end ir all ill never be loved again i hate everything i just wanbt to take a shotgun and blow my brains out i will never be lobved again i feel horrible i want someone i cant do this anymore i want to ruin my life and build it back up i want to puke my brains out i feel so SICK IM SO SICK IM SO SIXCK OIM SO SICK im sop sorry

he moved on so quick i understand i just want someone top love me without feeling like im too ugly or fat for someone i want someone to fetishize me so i can feel some semblance of love i want someone to use me brreak me and build me up again i miss that euphoric feeling i want to be in love i hate him i hate myself for beign disgusting i want love i want someone to cut with me to enable me pleasde im so fucked i feel like im going to diue