tw: self harm, how to not get caught self harming when you live with you family

[moya117]

ive been clean from sh for over a year now i think, but lately i feel like im going mad, partly bcs of my situasions and the fact that i dont drink my full medications now cus they makes my appearence much much more worse than it already is (like gaining wight, hyperpigmentation and stuff) which contributed to my ed and body dysmorphia.
i wanted to sh again to relieve my stress cus it works before (especially if i see the scars) but the problem is, i live with my mom and sister and i have little to no privacy since we all share the same bed cus my mom wont let me sleep on the other room.
the question is, how can i still sh secretly but at the same time not worrying about lasting scars? i tried sh on my thighs but its not as satisfying when i did it on my wrist, any advice?

 

[DivineSpark]

Thats reason why I dont do self harming, but there is temptation. I wanna go the gym, I wanna swim, but if I do self harm. Everyone will see those wounds.

 

[moya117]

Thats reason why I dont do self harming, but there is temptation. I wanna go the gym, I wanna swim, but if I do self harm. Everyone will see those wounds.

i kind of understand, but i cant really find any coping mechanism that is better than that

 

[DivineSpark]

i kind of understand, but i cant really find any coping mechanism that is better than that

Also, there are certain risks with self harm. There is always chance you might catch sepsis (also known as blood poisoning) it is one of the worst ways to die.

 

[moya117]

Also, there are certain risks with self harm. There is always chance you might catch sepsis (also known as blood poisoning) it is one of the worst ways to die.

i know that, but its either that or i will likely be put in a mental hospital again bcs of my condition

 

[DivineSpark]

i know that, but its either that or i will likely be put in a mental hospital again bcs of my condition

I recently bought sharp forest knife....there is temptation, I have been feeling like I wanna slice my throat or wrists open. But, I am coward when it comes to pain. So that wont happen.

 

[moya117]

I recently bought sharp forest knife....there is temptation, I have been feeling like I wanna slice my throat or wrists open. But, I am coward when it comes to pain. So that wont happen.

remember that your emotions are valid and you're NOT a "coward"

 

[sadalways]

I used to self harm on my shoulder or on my thighs but i can understand why wrist feels better. I wouldn't really advice on cutting in visible places because when i did i had to act like a ninja around my parents rotating my arm and stuff or just keeping my hand in my pocket so they don't see. But i don't think there's much you can do other than long sleeves.

 

[DivineSpark]

I used to self harm on my shoulder or on my thighs but i can understand why wrist feels better. I wouldn't really advice on cutting in visible places because when i did i had to act like a ninja around my parents rotating my arm and stuff or just keeping my hand in my pocket so they don't see. But i don't think there's much you can do other than long sleeves.

Yeah, I think they might lock me up again if I do self harm...

 

[moya117]

I used to self harm on my shoulder or on my thighs but i can understand why wrist feels better. I wouldn't really advice on cutting in visible places because when i did i had to act like a ninja around my parents rotating my arm and stuff or just keeping my hand in my pocket so they don't see. But i don't think there's much you can do other than long sleeves.

yeaa my mom would definitely suspect me if im wearing a long shirt, cus all i did all this time is just wearing a bra since its super hot in here plus, i have a bad sensory issues with clothes no matter the fabric

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

Don't do it. Either self harm or living with family

 

[moya117]

Don't do it. Either self harm or living with family

yea... that certainly do help buddy