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- Apr 25, 2024
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Well, here we go. Tonight I will attempt to use the drowning method (hyperventilation + deodorant spray + drowning).
I can't say I'm not nervous or scared. SI is a bitch and when the time comes I know my heart will be racing up. This is technically a good thing because that means I'll lose oxygen faster and will reach cardiac arrest sooner, but I'm still scared. My plan is to swim out if possible and do it in a place where no witnesses are present.
Eventhough I really want to go it's kind of sad that this is it. I can't afford to fail or back down because if I go another week I will lose my mind. The universe will decide my fate tonight.
If I'm a bitch and don't have the bravery to go through, or I survive somehow, I will come back here and let you know.
Extremely nervous. Someone planning to ctb today?
I can't say I'm not nervous or scared. SI is a bitch and when the time comes I know my heart will be racing up. This is technically a good thing because that means I'll lose oxygen faster and will reach cardiac arrest sooner, but I'm still scared. My plan is to swim out if possible and do it in a place where no witnesses are present.
Eventhough I really want to go it's kind of sad that this is it. I can't afford to fail or back down because if I go another week I will lose my mind. The universe will decide my fate tonight.
If I'm a bitch and don't have the bravery to go through, or I survive somehow, I will come back here and let you know.
Extremely nervous. Someone planning to ctb today?