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ixkitty

ixkitty

Let me be Selfish, just this once.
Aug 15, 2020
364
I've been fighting the instinct with the will to die. I'm trying to figure out how to bypass that survival instinct. Any tips would be appreciated!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,881
I think if I knew how to overcome the SI, I would already be gone. I do believe that in my case, I will only be able to ctb when I get desperate and the pain of living gets to be unbearable. The survival instinct is frustrating, it is determined to keep us suffering. I wish you the best.
 
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ixkitty

ixkitty

Let me be Selfish, just this once.
Aug 15, 2020
364
I think if I knew how to overcome the SI, I would already be gone. I do believe that in my case, I will only be able to ctb when I get desperate and the pain of living gets to be unbearable. The survival instinct is frustrating, it is determined to keep us suffering. I wish you the best.
I feel the same way ! It works my last nerve! Good luck to you too
 
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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,133
The million dollar question…
If you find the answer please let me know
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I like to remind myself that death will happen sooner or later. If I choose death by ctb, I am in control.

I can't grow up old, live alone, have poor health,...etc. I feel like a burden NOW despite working, studying and paying my bills and taxes. The feeling will get worse over time.
 
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ixkitty

ixkitty

Let me be Selfish, just this once.
Aug 15, 2020
364
I like to remind myself that death will happen sooner or later. If I choose death by ctb, I am in control.

I can't grow up old, live alone, have poor health,...etc. I feel like a burden NOW despite working, studying and paying my bills and taxes. The feeling will get worse over time.
I feel that feeling. It's a whole mess to deal with
 
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TheStandard

TheStandard

Member
Feb 16, 2022
27
This is my biggest issue. I literally have everything in my bed next to me, exit bag, nitrogen tank, and everything good. I tried the other day, and I just started feeling tingly, and pulled the hood off super quick. I think I just need to be MUCH more tired and/or drunk to do this. I'm just tired of it all, and just want it over with.
 
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SpaceCadet

SpaceCadet

‎In a perfect world, nobody would be suicidal
Feb 27, 2022
193
I have been really close to doing it once when i was pretty drunk, but i wouldn't recommend it, it's to the best of your interest to be sober, so you can make a rational decision. When you are at the rock bottom things get pretty dark, hopelessness hijack our brains, making the SI lower substantially too. In my opinion It all comes down to the individual breaking point, where there's no other option but to do it.
 
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I don't even know if there are any studies around this—because it's a fascinating topic. Like anything else, I think there's a genetic component to whether someone will or won't suicide. That's where the ability to overcome is rooted. That means, to a certain extent, it's out of ppl's hands. That's my guess anyway…
 
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Sea Turtle

Sea Turtle

She/Her ✨ Achieving True Peace
Aug 12, 2020
346
I don't know if I can speak to this really, as I haven't had a (satisfactory) method at my hands or attempt before, though, that will (hopefully) change in two weeks. I think for me, it's become a mostly rational decision which will hopefully lead to the SI being less apparent when the time comes. I feel like if it's purely impulsive and emotional, SI will kick in just as hard as the feelings do.
 
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S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,596
SI is the worst bitch i had to deal with
 
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TheStandard

TheStandard

Member
Feb 16, 2022
27
I have been really close to doing it once when i was pretty drunk, but i wouldn't recommend it, it's to the best of your interest to be sober, so you can make a rational decision. When you are at the rock bottom things get pretty dark, hopelessness hijack our brains, making the SI lower substantially too. In my opinion It all comes down to the individual breaking point, where there's no other option but to do it.
I'm not a drinker. I had a beer the other day, and a couple bottles of wine over the last week, and they've been in my house for almost a year. I'm more of a cannabis smoker than anything. It's more so for the anxiety and to hopefully taper down the SI overall. I did find 3/5ths of a Xanax though that I got for my ex when we were going on a vacation due to her anxiety, that may also help here.
 
WonderingSoul

WonderingSoul

Gamer
Dec 15, 2021
327
I don't have any hints, but I remember one time my problems outweighed my solutions, so I became so desperate that hanging almost worked for me. I chocked and nearly suffocated. My set up wasn't that good so I was able to recover. Desperation almost always works for me.
 
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Freedomindeath4me

Student
Apr 6, 2022
106
There is simply no universal answer to this. Psyching yourself into it will look different to every person.

In the past attempts I've had it was very hard. I backed out of some of them when I stuck my toe in the water. The more misery I've endured the more I have been brazen in my suicide attempts.
 
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Checkmate64

Checkmate64

i already feel dead
Mar 14, 2020
21
I think the only way I will be able to cbt is by acting on impulse without over thinking it, that's when SI takes over and i get to anxious.
I think i'm getting close to the point i cbt though…
 
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Imperia

Member
Apr 11, 2022
23
At the moment of ctb: intentionally dissociating from your emotions.

In the weeks before, when you so called 'made up your mind': I have no idea. Ugh, I hate this daily battle between SI and will to die.
 
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