Soapie
I hope we all can heal from this
- Mar 26, 2021
- 85
Im laying in bed right now just picturing my body in a pool of blood, or hanging from the ceiling, or simply dropped dead from N. It sounds so so nice. Every single worry I've ever had just... Poof. Ceased to exist. Thinking about it is like a sort of meditation for me at this point. I can breathe calmly and think clearly. It's really strange that suicidal ideation is helping me cope through life. Is that healthy? Probably not, but it's not like that matters. I just want to be gone so bad