Feel so much relief to think N is on its way. Just having a peaceful method in the future is providing a sense of calmness I can't explain. I have no planned date on when to use it but hoping to share the journey of ordering/receiving. My previous method was always to attempt gunshot to the head, and this sounds soo much better. Thanks everyone for providing an opportunity to discuss these things as I'm very alone in my life.
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Sadism
Member
- Oct 11, 2021
- 19
Blacklight
Member
- Jan 3, 2022
- 33
Just knowing this bus is waiting can bring for brighter days. I'm still looking for a provider myself
The source listed in the Nov 2021 PPH resource that can be found on this forum
Congratulations, I'm glad it's brought you peace. Now you get to look forward to the excitement of tracing the progress bar of shipping every day! That's what I'm doing for SN, gives me a little relief even if I wish it moved faster.
CassieHoward
peace out ss
- Mar 11, 2022
- 254
I know exactly how you feel - I just ordered again myself and it brings about a kind of calm that's hard to explain. I imagine it's so satisfying for you to be fully in control of your life now, especially when that N arrives.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,885
I understand why you would be relieved. I can imagine that it must be very comforting having a way to peacefully exit this world at a time of your own choosing. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point, but I wish you the best in whatever happens.
It is! It's frustrating how hard it has to be to access something so important. I hope the same happens for you again!! If you don't mind me asking, did something go wrong with your first order? No worries if you don't want to answer
CassieHoward
peace out ss
- Mar 11, 2022
- 254
It's still not clear if it was seized by Customs or if UPS lost it, I can't really tell tbh. Either way I just ordered again, not a big deal.
We do what we have to do. : - )
Aw man that's a bummer :( hoping that doesn't happen but guess we can't control these things
BrokenBliss
Invisible. Apparently.
- Jan 11, 2022
- 522
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,206
I'm glad for you. I was excited and nervous when I got the tracking. Just wait till the delivery guy turns up to your door. You'll most likely be over the moon, like I was. 
I know exactly the feeling of calm you mean just knowing that there is a method available that ticks all the boxes. I have been thinking about this for many years and it was only the lack of knowledge of a good method that stopped me. Now I am wondering if once I receive my order whether I will actually want to use it or become so calm by having it available that I will no longer want it.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,206
I know what you mean. Personally, I felt calm and super happy for a while, but for me it is the opposite. Knowing that the N is there makes me want to give up sooner. I have no clue how long liquid N will last. So I don't want it to degrade for years while I'm pretending that things will get better.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,206
Also more prone to crying and breaking down lately. I think it is a combination of being an emotional person and knowing my days are numbered. It is not as comforting for some people as it is for others. It's a weird state to be in.
insomni_yak001
Member
- Mar 31, 2022
- 36
I'm happy that you feel more at peace :)
I am nervous because I paid and sent proof of payment the other day but haven't gotten a response... I'm so nervous this won't work out for me somehow. Other CTB methods are too terrifying for me... I want this to work.
I am nervous because I paid and sent proof of payment the other day but haven't gotten a response... I'm so nervous this won't work out for me somehow. Other CTB methods are too terrifying for me... I want this to work.
CassieHoward
peace out ss
- Mar 11, 2022
- 254
And it will. There isn't a single report of D not holding up their end.
its-about-time
nope
- Mar 19, 2022
- 807
When I first discovered the PPH a few weeks ago the first method is exit bag with nitrogen. It was SO MUCH BETTER than any method I had ever considered, I immediately went out and bought all the stuff for the bag. Walking out of that final store with the last of the necessary items, I couldn't stop smiling. I probably looked like a drunk idiot. It was just pure bliss.
I ended up deciding SN after that and have it in my closet now. But no matter the method i can totally relate to that awesome relief and happiness. It really feels good. Some anxiety for me, other feelings, but majority is just feeling really damn happy to have a way out that I actually LIKE.
Can anyone message me confirmation of the correct current email address for ordering N ? I was advised to check with someone in a thread even though they linked me the PPeH as apparently it can be altered or may be an old email address.
No point in ordering now because there's a global shortage of N and D is not selling any for now and minimum a few months into the future.
That's very bad news. I had not realised that as people seemed to be ordering it very recently.
Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
- 1,357
Please can you include me too. I am very new but this is exactly what my plan is. Thank you
If it is true about N not being available anymore that must have happened very recently as others on this site appear to have ordered or received it in the last few days.
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