such a fucking failure

[dummy]

can't keep friendships. can't keep up with school. can't keep up relationships. im a piece of shit. worthless piece of shit. im glad i won't be able to hurt more people. i think it's good. itll be like i was never born to me......wish it could be like that to everyone else.

 

[sunsetintehwoods]

I sorry you feel this way, pal.
And you a not alone here.

But from my view, in school i tried to mimic normality too. Now i can say that be like everyone else sucks.
Never heard more boring shit like story about totally average life.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate, especially because I've become a really lonely person and I don't think I will ever have friends or a gf again.

You said "school". May I ask how old you are? It seems you're really young.

My life got interesting in my 25s. Everything was hell before that and then at my 30s, hell came back lol

 

[whywere]

HI! 1st off you are NOT, never have been and NEVER WILL BE a failure. 2nd, I am 65 years young, gray hair and all, and my "parents" called me "the mistake" till I was 18 and kicked me out. They never spoke to me again, their choice. so I grew up thinking and feeling like a failure, BUT I went out and spread my wings and found my way that made me not a failure. 3th Now that is just my expereince, I know, BUT, I have life experience and I KNOW that you can and will find ways and means that make you a winner. Listen to yourself in your post and reading between the lines of your post, you are a thoughtful, smart, kind person with alot going for you in the future. 65 years young does NOT make me any smarter than anyone, probably dumber!, BUT I do have life experience. I 100% believe in YOU @dummy, darn hate to be a jerk, but a new name for yourself here maybe?? Reason is that you should call yourself talented instead. Been down that road 45, yep, 45 years ago and I BELIEVE in you, SUPPORT you and CARE for you. Pm me if you would like. All my love, caring and SUPPORT, SUPPORT goes to you!!!!! Walter (yep, Walter is my real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and never ever phoney)

P.S. WELCOME to Sanctioned Suicide!! Love having you as a new global family member. We are the finest family on this planet, hands down!!!Again, WELCOME!!! Walter

 

[fred farkle]

come on,dummy!! yeah life is hard for you,and you'll never have the easy life that some have but,thats no reason to give up! you need to rest and regroup and figure out what you need to do to get a better life!

 

[Sprite_Geist]

can't keep friendships. can't keep up with school. can't keep up relationships. im a piece of shit. worthless piece of shit. im glad i won't be able to hurt more people. i think it's good. itll be like i was never born to me......wish it could be like that to everyone else.

An inability to make connections with other humans does not mean that you are an "undesirable" person. It might not be that you are worthless, but rather that you are around others that make you feel worthless - possibly.

Your post mentions school, so have the friendships and relationships that you have talked about came from school too? If this is true then it might explain a lot.

Schools tend to be horrible places - from personal experience. The majority of people form cliques and there is much pressure to fit in, and those that fail to assimilate are insulted and mocked for not conforming; then, of course, you have teachers that are either unable or just unwilling to stop bullies who run rampant, and yet if you take the matter into your own hands you will be punished by those same teachers; while all of this is happening you are constantly trying to hold down coursework and such. It is a very stressful environment - like a prison but for very young people.

If this describes a similar experience to what you are going through then please remember this: do not worry about being liked or disliked by those at school. Relationships in the school years are often superficial and mean nothing. The majority of people do not even see each other after they have graduated.

This post makes a lot of assumptions. Feel free to ignore it, if it is not accurate.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I'm in the same boat. I have multiple mental defects, but my mother won't allow me to die.

 

[orlandom]

can't keep friendships. can't keep up with school. can't keep up relationships. im a piece of shit. worthless piece of shit. im glad i won't be able to hurt more people. i think it's good. itll be like i was never born to me......wish it could be like that to everyone else.

Do you know what very cool psychotherapists say in response to your statement? - You're a piece of shit.

They know you need support. But it is a shock to receive such an answer. You start to defend yourself.

Love you.