Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
- Jul 1, 2020
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Im still not sleeping well. Im still not taking my meds.
Ive thought about starting them again but idk....it makes me cringe. And there isnt really anything i can do about my lack of sleep. Well i have melatonin but..i dont feel like it.
I remember one day i think i counted 7 pills i took. And all for "normal" bs (as in what normal people just do, not the "important" ones for issues and what not, youll probably understand better in a sec)
I took 2 (1 in the morning and 1 at night) antianxieties - just so i can not have voices in my head and i can interect with people without a total meltdown
I took 3 lactose pills - just so i could enjoy some ice cream (yes i know they make special ice cream for me but that shits expensive, from what ive seen only comes in little contaniers, and cant find it in my favorite flavours (which as far as i know you cant, i like 'weird' ones, my favorite being moon mist).
1 advil (or something like that, this one could have been advil, motrin, naproxen or tylenol 1) - for headaches that i have....i dont want to say daily but definitly a good protion of a month.
And 1 melatonin - for sleep.
All that for "normal" things, just in one day! Yeah im probably sick of meds.
Also before someones all "people have it worse" or whatever you think about saying, this is exactly my point. Theres nothing stopping me from needing "non normal" meds in the future. I have chest problems, and back problems and god knows what else is going to crop up. Im only 22, thats a lot of years for my health to go down and those 7 pills turns into 20 and im carrying around a huge ziplock bag. Theres also the fact that im still probably going to need more mental health meds.
I hate meds. Maybe i should just put them all in a bowl with some milk (lactose free) and have them for breakfast.
Ive thought about starting them again but idk....it makes me cringe. And there isnt really anything i can do about my lack of sleep. Well i have melatonin but..i dont feel like it.
I remember one day i think i counted 7 pills i took. And all for "normal" bs (as in what normal people just do, not the "important" ones for issues and what not, youll probably understand better in a sec)
I took 2 (1 in the morning and 1 at night) antianxieties - just so i can not have voices in my head and i can interect with people without a total meltdown
I took 3 lactose pills - just so i could enjoy some ice cream (yes i know they make special ice cream for me but that shits expensive, from what ive seen only comes in little contaniers, and cant find it in my favorite flavours (which as far as i know you cant, i like 'weird' ones, my favorite being moon mist).
1 advil (or something like that, this one could have been advil, motrin, naproxen or tylenol 1) - for headaches that i have....i dont want to say daily but definitly a good protion of a month.
And 1 melatonin - for sleep.
All that for "normal" things, just in one day! Yeah im probably sick of meds.
Also before someones all "people have it worse" or whatever you think about saying, this is exactly my point. Theres nothing stopping me from needing "non normal" meds in the future. I have chest problems, and back problems and god knows what else is going to crop up. Im only 22, thats a lot of years for my health to go down and those 7 pills turns into 20 and im carrying around a huge ziplock bag. Theres also the fact that im still probably going to need more mental health meds.
I hate meds. Maybe i should just put them all in a bowl with some milk (lactose free) and have them for breakfast.