So i guess i'm doing this tonight...

[dangier_to_myself]

...but I'm so fucking scared. And I have so much left to do and only, like, 2 hours in which to do it. In this state of mind I know I'll forget something very important

 

[shattered dreams]

We are here to support you whether you choose to ctb or not. If you do ctb, I wish you eternal peace on your next journey. I probably will be joining you very soon myself.

 

[Definitelyworried]

...but I'm so fucking scared. And I have so much left to do and only, like, 2 hours in which to do it. In this state of mind I know I'll forget something very important

Could it wait til tomorrow? Or is that out of the question?

 

[dangier_to_myself]

The sun is going to come up in a few minutes, and I'm doing this outside...

 

[Definitelyworried]

What method and is this your first attempt ever?

 

[PatKat]

The sun is going to come up in a few minutes, and I'm doing this outside...

What method are you going to use? Will anyone be able to find you?

 

[dangier_to_myself]

What method are you going to use? Will anyone be able to find you?

Sodium nitrite. They'll find me real fuckin easy if I don't hurry!

 

[PatKat]

Sodium nitrite. They'll find me real fuckin easy if I don't hurry!

You said you will be outside? Why not locked in your room?

 

[Definitelyworried]

Sodium nitrite. They'll find me real fuckin easy if I don't hurry!

You could be saved even after ingesting the sodium nitrite.

 

[Morning Angel]

This sounds like an impulsive attempt, based on the fact that your plan isn't completely decided upon. You sure you need to leave tonight? I'm not here to judge - really, it's up to you. But waiting a bit will help you think it through and ensure success.

 

[Definitelyworried]

I agree, experiencing a failed attempt and ending up hospitalized after, is something you do not want to go through.

 

[PatKat]

I agree, experiencing a failed attempt and ending up hospitalized after, is something you do not want to go through.

Agreed I have been there and I still have issues from it 10 year ago...

 

[Ssname]

I am an advocate of taking your time to get it right. Someone once told me "you can always kill yourself tomorrow so why rush".

 

[Comatose11]

If you're not sure it might be a good idea to wait. If you don't feel like a kid on Christmas morning about dying, maybe it isn't the right time for you, and that's ok.

 

[Hayalet]

We are here to support you whether you choose to ctb or not. If you do ctb, I wish you eternal peace on your next journey. I probably will be joining you very soon myself.

Sounds like your unsure. I hope you find peace with whatever decision you choose