That's exactly why I'm reluctant to try hanging but it's becoming the only option but it holds so many risks
Yeah definitely, I wouldn't trust myself to do it properly.
I think my preference order of realistic options are:
1) SN - cheap ish and painless, little risk to health
2) N - same as SN, probably more reliable but very expensive
3) Beachy Head - probably near certain CTB but effort to go and scared of heights
4) My flat balcony - 9 floors so more risk of vegetable state
5) Hanging - Can be painful, nowhere to do it, high vegetable risk
6) Jump in front of train - painful, trauma for driver, probably would be too scared at the time
Haven't really considered others, don't think I'd want to!