sick of fighting and tired

[noname223]

I've been dealt a very bad hand in life. Many things happened that were beyond my control. I fight so hard against my coming suicide but everything is rigged against me. Everything is in vain. There is barely hope. I don't even want to imagine how bad my life has to become before i finally ctb.
Other people have such an easy game to play and for me nothing works. No matter how much of my remaining energy i spend. It hurts so much...

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.

People tell me that I'm really lucky to have a family and a place to live in because things could've been much worse.
However, I never chose to be born, bipolar and suicidal. It's unfair to be brought into this nonsense world when we never asked for it.

I guess we can't choose where we're born, our family, our mental/physical illnesses, etc. It's just a matter of LUCK and you're right, our hands just suck.