Mx_Pathetic
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- May 8, 2023
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I've been living the same year since I was 18 and I still have no job, barely leave my house unless I get invited by a friend. I hate that I'm like this…but my anxiety eats at me. I don't even help my family with house chores. I haven't moved out and rely on my parents more times. I'm currently trying TMS and I hope it helps…because I'm seriously losing all hope on getting better. I was always told to "hold on, it'll get better" but I hasn't..I was 8-9 when it all started and yet..I haven't gotten better. Maybe I'm just cursed. I've currently started getting closer with an online friend I've know for 3 years…but it's like he won't let me get to close. Anytime I try mention my issues he either ignores it or tried to change the subject eventually. I feel if I opened up anyways, if I told him about all my mental issues..told him I was jobless and lived with my family. He'd definitely ditch me. I wouldn't blame him honesty. He's 18, he has a job and has fun with his irl friends…something I feel I'll never truly have. I'm a shut in, struggle with mental illness on a whole other level and live with my parents, don't have my licence, how pathetic, right? For 4 years…it's been the same…I'm a lost cause…I just want to die. I want my younger 8 year old self to finally get what she wanted…
