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Reflection
Lost
- Sep 12, 2024
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Sometimes I keep thinking to myself: what if they are right? That I am the problem? That it IS my problem and mine alone, that I'm the only one bringing this pain upon myself and have no one to blame but me?
Whenever I feel that way I just think to myself that I don't deserve to "get out", because in the end I still try to hold myself accountable and running away from a shitstorm I stirred myself is despicable in my opinion... But even then deep inside I know that none of it is true, I mean yeah nobody is perfect, and we all do make mistakes, but weighing everything I in no way think that I deserve any of this.
Whenever I feel that way I just think to myself that I don't deserve to "get out", because in the end I still try to hold myself accountable and running away from a shitstorm I stirred myself is despicable in my opinion... But even then deep inside I know that none of it is true, I mean yeah nobody is perfect, and we all do make mistakes, but weighing everything I in no way think that I deserve any of this.