Venting please comfort me

[woodlandcreature]

i don't care if it's stupid or pathetic anymore. i don't care. i'm too tired to. i won't be here for more than 2.5 weeks. by the end of the month i will be dead. i can't keep suffering any longer. before i die, i just want some comfort. i don't care if it's real or not i just want something. anything. if anyone can provide some comforting words, it would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Yesterday you responded to my post and helped me feeling not so alone:)
I hope that you'll find eternal peace after you ctb.
I am as I always say because its simply the full truth … i am so so sorry that life brought you to this point where you wanna die. It always makes me so sad because what a shit show is this? Some are enjoying their time on earth but others like you and also me and many others go through hell.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I see the deadline you've set. You don't have to explain why you set that deadline and you are not in any way pathetic. You are simply done, and I completely understand you.
You have carried the weight of your life for too long.
I have read many of your posts here on this forum and I know that you have tried and you have fought and that is a profound and lonely kind of strength.

 

[itsgone2]

I wish I had the words. This life seems to provide no comfort.

 

[Betsy007]

Whatever comes next, oblivion or an afterlife, things are about to be so much better for you.

 

[ifihadnever]

I just want you to know I don't believe you to be stupid or pathetic but a person asking for comfort - nothing stupid or pathetic about that. I hope whatever you decide to do, you will find peace. I'm sorry you are feeling like this

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much,
however you decide, I hope you find the peace you deserve
I am sending you much love and a warm hug

 

[MissWannaLive]

Nothing is ever truly stupid or pathethic. Those who think that way are the ones that lack the ability to see from other perspective. I stumbled upon your post just by accident but here it never is accidental. Most of us were or still are on the edge. Balancing it or trying to plan an escape. As I am for everyone I am also for you, mad at the world that it pushes so many people to cross the line permanently. However I am not judging you at all. Quite the opposite. Even if you have given yourself a 'deadline' I am still proud of you that you have come so far. Even if you don't have anymore strength in you it's still admirable that you have come so far. Not many can manage that. It may sound fake from a stranger, a thousands sentences like that were already formed but it's one thing from a stranger who never was on the edge and another stranger who also lives by it. In the very end I hope your last days will be filled with things that at the very least are neutral to you or will bring you small bits of peace. I hope after cbt you will achieve what you lacked here and wherever you may be (that depends on your beliefs if you have any) I hope it will be a better place than this. Take care of yourself in the last weeks and remember that you have come so far purely because you were strong and if anything, no one thinks that is pathethic. It takes a lot to handle the world and it's natural that after fighting for so long you exhaust yourself.

 

[woodlandcreature]

Thank you all for your responses. I really wasn't expecting anything, but your responses are quite consolatory.

Yesterday you responded to my post and helped me feeling not so alone:)

I'm glad my words were of some comfort to you. Thank you for providing me with the same—no, an elevated—grace.

You are simply done, and I completely understand you.
You have carried the weight of your life for too long.

Simply done, indeed. The weight is far too heavy to bear. I've always appreciated reading your perspectives.

Nothing is ever truly stupid or pathethic. Those who think that way are the ones that lack the ability to see from other perspective. I stumbled upon your post just by accident but here it never is accidental. Most of us were or still are on the edge. Balancing it or trying to plan an escape. As I am for everyone I am also for you, mad at the world that it pushes so many people to cross the line permanently. However I am not judging you at all. Quite the opposite. Even if you have given yourself a 'deadline' I am still proud of you that you have come so far. Even if you don't have anymore strength in you it's still admirable that you have come so far. Not many can manage that. It may sound fake from a stranger, a thousands sentences like that were already formed but it's one thing from a stranger who never was on the edge and another stranger who also lives by it. In the very end I hope your last days will be filled with things that at the very least are neutral to you or will bring you small bits of peace. I hope after cbt you will achieve what you lacked here and wherever you may be (that depends on your beliefs if you have any) I hope it will be a better place than this. Take care of yourself in the last weeks and remember that you have come so far purely because you were strong and if anything, no one thinks that is pathethic. It takes a lot to handle the world and it's natural that after fighting for so long you exhaust yourself.

And thank you dearly for this response. It is so poignantly thorough that I do not know where to begin to express my gratitude. I sincerely appreciate your sentiments.

 

[$yck]

Fuck I'm late to this post. I could go on and on about all the times you've made me feel welcomed, cared for, and like a human being in the short couple of weeks that we've interacted and through a screen nonetheless. It has genuinely been such an amazing experience getting to know you, talking to you, and seeing you around here. I hope that you find peace, whether that be in life, death, or whatever else there is. It's such a pleasure to know you.

 

[webb&flow]

you are a lovely friend and lovely to talk to as well

i'm rlly sorry to hear you're feeling so much pain. It's not your fault. You're not in pain because you're "bad" or "terrible" at all; you're a beautiful person and you have such a deep, exuberant, and rare, taste for art, as well. i really really loved that message you wrote me (completely unprompted! out of your own love and interest) about that painting you showed me as well. If you ever feel like writing more such things, feel free too as well~but no pressure, I'm just so so grateful to have known your loving countenance as a person; and i just want to let you know that you deserve love and goodness, and that you deserve genuine praise as well. You certainly show all these wonderful virtues in our correspondence as well!—you deserve every bit of love people show on here you certainly are a special and lovable person; i want you to remember this too :)

sincerely!!!
—webb

P.S. i mean every word here and i affirmatively assure you that none of this is any superfluous comfort, but what i know to the sincere truth. love you, thank you for existing

 

[-Link-]

It can be challenging to find words of comfort to say to someone in this kind of extraordinary pain, so for every person who comments in here, I'd expect there are a number of others who want to say something but just can't find the words. Know their good intentions are there, even if they're not able to express them in words.

While all of us have different stories, the one thing members here have in common is that we have a great deal of suffering going on in our lives. So, while I and other members don't necessarily know what it is to have experienced whatever it is that's led you up to this point, we do understand and know first-hand what it is to live with chronic overwhelming mental and emotional pain.

Whether you decide to end your life as intended, or you decide to live for another day, here you are among people who 'get it' and who hear you and support you, and I hope there can be some feeling of comfort in that.

Sending you strength and good vibes and wishing you well as can be under the circumstances, @woodlandcreature

 

[woodlandcreature]

Fuck I'm late to this post. I could go on and on about all the times you've made me feel welcomed, cared for, and like a human being in the short couple of weeks that we've interacted and through a screen nonetheless. It has genuinely been such an amazing experience getting to know you, talking to you, and seeing you around here. I hope that you find peace, whether that be in life, death, or whatever else there is. It's such a pleasure to know you.

You were not "late" at all! It's been wonderful getting to know you as well. You seem like such a sublime person. I hope you can find peace in some way, truly. Thank you.

you are a lovely friend and lovely to talk to as well

i'm rlly sorry to hear you're feeling so much pain. It's not your fault. You're not in pain because you're "bad" or "terrible" at all; you're a beautiful person and you have such a deep, exuberant, and rare, taste for art, as well. i really really loved that message you wrote me (completely unprompted! out of your own love and interest) about that painting you showed me as well. If you ever feel like writing more such things, feel free too as well~but no pressure, I'm just so so grateful to have known your loving countenance as a person; and i just want to let you know that you deserve love and goodness, and that you deserve genuine praise as well. You certainly show all these wonderful virtues in our correspondence as well!—you deserve every bit of love people show on here you certainly are a special and lovable person; i want you to remember this too :)

sincerely!!!
—webb

P.S. i mean every word here and i affirmatively assure you that none of this is any superfluous comfort, but what i know to the sincere truth. love you, thank you for existing

Ah Webb, I am so glad to have met you as well. You are quite a profound person ;-)
Your many talents (especially the remarkable ability to really connect with people and make them feel seen) are critically needed. Love you too, and I'll try to write to you more of my musings. Take care of yourself, dear friend. Forever grateful.

It can be challenging to find words of comfort to say to someone in this kind of extraordinary pain, so for every person who comments in here, I'd expect there are a number of others who want to say something but just can't find the words. Know their good intentions are there, even if they're not able to express them in words.

While all of us have different stories, the one thing members here have in common is that we have a great deal of suffering going on in our lives. So, while I and other members don't necessarily know what it is to have experienced whatever it is that's led you up to this point, we do understand and know first-hand what it is to live with chronic overwhelming mental and emotional pain.

Whether you decide to end your life as intended, or you decide to live for another day, here you are among people who 'get it' and who hear you and support you, and I hope there can be some feeling of comfort in that.

Sending you strength and good vibes and wishing you well as can be under the circumstances, @woodlandcreature

To the wondrous Link, your wise words are always enthusiastically appreciated. Thank you for your mindfulness and consoling notions. I'm glad that here, at least, I can feel a bit less alien in this existence.

Again, thank you all for your kind words, resonance, and well wishes. It is appreciated more than I would ever be able to express through words. I wish we all could have met under better circumstances. I am sending any positive thoughts I can manage to all of you. With love

 

[drakflowerfire]

I wish you the best. And i give you an hug to you.