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somniummalum
Student
- Jul 3, 2020
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My parents have ruined me. I wonder why I don't ever get used to the emotional pain the cause me to feel, they are still, after all the suffering they caused me in the past, capable of hurting me again and again. Seems like I don't ever learn?
Today, I had a glimmer of hope in my life, which was taken away immediatly by my mother. Half a year ago I applied for a very good rehabilitation facility, usually you have to wait +1 year to get to do the therapy. The doctor called me today, said since some people canceled, I could come as soon as next week (which is insanely lucky)!
I've been very suicidal the last few month, but this incident made me think "maybe I'll just give this a chance..."
So I happily called my mother, telling her the good news. Her reaction broke my heart really.
First thing she said: "what?! that would cost a fortune, wouldn't it?!! you are just crazy. Son, you DON'T HAVE ANY ILLNESS, STOP COMPLAINING, just go find a job, then you won't even think about feeling bad! I promise to you, I will not pay anything for this, forget about it"
I did not ask her for money or anything, I just told her the news.
I told her she can go fuck herself and hung up the phone.
How can she be so heartless? She knows how suicidal, depressed I am.
Man, I'm in so much pain right now. I just want out ASAP. This fucking SN just needs to arrive.
Am I in the wrong here? Her words get to my head so much... even though I know it's bs...
Any thoughts from you guys to this situation would help...
Today, I had a glimmer of hope in my life, which was taken away immediatly by my mother. Half a year ago I applied for a very good rehabilitation facility, usually you have to wait +1 year to get to do the therapy. The doctor called me today, said since some people canceled, I could come as soon as next week (which is insanely lucky)!
I've been very suicidal the last few month, but this incident made me think "maybe I'll just give this a chance..."
So I happily called my mother, telling her the good news. Her reaction broke my heart really.
First thing she said: "what?! that would cost a fortune, wouldn't it?!! you are just crazy. Son, you DON'T HAVE ANY ILLNESS, STOP COMPLAINING, just go find a job, then you won't even think about feeling bad! I promise to you, I will not pay anything for this, forget about it"
I did not ask her for money or anything, I just told her the news.
I told her she can go fuck herself and hung up the phone.
How can she be so heartless? She knows how suicidal, depressed I am.
Man, I'm in so much pain right now. I just want out ASAP. This fucking SN just needs to arrive.
Am I in the wrong here? Her words get to my head so much... even though I know it's bs...
Any thoughts from you guys to this situation would help...
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