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SoftWorries
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- Feb 22, 2023
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It has been a year since I last posted on here. From reading through my posts from a year ago I see I was too depressed to do much of anything and I was seriously haunted by flashbacks and memories.
Well that isn't the case anymore.
A year ago I managed to rejoin school and, after a multiple year pause in my studies, finish the last year of my degree. I ended up getting a good paying job back in May in the career I intended.
I don't have flashbacks anymore either. The memories have faded with the huge amount of work I needed to do in the past year to graduate.
And now that the sand has settled in my life and I'm out on the other side I need to say:
All of this really sucks.
It really truly sucks.
The dreams I had that I felt abuse and depression had taken from me are now in my hands and it truly truly sucks.
So I decided to give opiates a try.
Suicide by opiate overdose was my plan. My plan was always to get a enough to kill myself with and enjoy for some months before hand. Unfortunately, opiates aren't what I had been anticipating.
I am very susceptible to motion sickness so the feeling of opiates is close to a fever dream with the fever included. It's not entirely pleasant
I've realized my dreams and found nothing in it for me. I crossed my greatest taboo and found no real pleasure.
Seriously what is this life thing if even opiates can't keep me invested.
That's my update. Thank you for reading.
Well that isn't the case anymore.
A year ago I managed to rejoin school and, after a multiple year pause in my studies, finish the last year of my degree. I ended up getting a good paying job back in May in the career I intended.
I don't have flashbacks anymore either. The memories have faded with the huge amount of work I needed to do in the past year to graduate.
And now that the sand has settled in my life and I'm out on the other side I need to say:
All of this really sucks.
It really truly sucks.
The dreams I had that I felt abuse and depression had taken from me are now in my hands and it truly truly sucks.
So I decided to give opiates a try.
Suicide by opiate overdose was my plan. My plan was always to get a enough to kill myself with and enjoy for some months before hand. Unfortunately, opiates aren't what I had been anticipating.
I am very susceptible to motion sickness so the feeling of opiates is close to a fever dream with the fever included. It's not entirely pleasant
I've realized my dreams and found nothing in it for me. I crossed my greatest taboo and found no real pleasure.
Seriously what is this life thing if even opiates can't keep me invested.
That's my update. Thank you for reading.