Venting One last shot

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Tonight I'll be giving this one last shot; one very last attempt at suicide. For the umpteenth time, I have reserved myself a hotel room, and my method is still the same ( though I have researched my method, and I now feel relatively comfortable with my decision). I'll be attempting partial suspension hanging.

For the first time, I feel comfortable with this decision: no more sorrow, no more fear, no more self-loathing, and (most importantly), no more guilt. I have lived with feelings of guilt for so many years, now. I don't deserve that.

I deserve deliverance from this pain. I may not deserve much else, but this life is mine. ...and I will choose the manner in which I leave this world.

Thank you all for being there for me. I hope one day we will all find a peaceful end.

 

[Mort]

Tonight I'll be giving this one last shot; one very last attempt at suicide. For the umpteenth time, I have reserved myself a hotel room, and my method is still the same ( though I have researched my method, and I now feel relatively comfortable with my decision). I'll be attempting partial suspension hanging.

For the first time, I feel comfortable with this decision: no more sorrow, no more fear, no more self-loathing, and (most importantly), no more guilt. I have lived with feelings of guilt for so many years, now. I don't deserve that.

I deserve deliverance from this pain. I may not deserve much else, but this life is mine. ...and I will choose the manner in which I leave this world.

Thank you all for being there for me. I hope one day we will all find a peaceful end.

May you find peace on the other side have a safe trip to.

 

[SadGirl]

I hope you can rest in peace, my friend. One more star goes to heaven, we admire him very much.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

May you find peace on the other side have a safe trip to.

Thanks. That does really mean a lot.:)

 

[GreyMagic]

Night night. Hope all goes well. Everybody deserves a peaceful ctb experience including you.

 

[Marawa]

I hope you find peace.

 

[a3nova]

May you find peace

 

[Dead beat dad]

Peace friend. I hope a light shines on you for you to find what you're looking for.
DBD

 

[Macc Lad]

May you find peace on the other side have a safe trip to.

"have a safe trip" .......he's not going for a day out to the seaside!!

 

[Walilamdzi]

Peace.

 

[Macc Lad]

jesus christ........another one that's back! death's not for you mate.......try giving life another shot!

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

jesus christ........another one that's back! death's not for you mate.......try giving life another shot!

I know! I'm doing my best, I swear. I just can't seem to commit to anything! Btw, Macc, I've always enjoyed your sardonic commentary.
I have decided that suicide is not for me. I wish that I had the courage to do it, but I don't. I have the upmost respect and admiration for people that do, and I believe everyone has the right to persue a more peaceful way to die. I, however, am a coward. And so I, like many others before me, will try to live my life unto it's "natural" end, living in abject misery because other people would be upset if I were to kms.