Discussion On Methods

[the_seer]

I have read multiple posts on different methods I could consider and, much like many others, believe I have settled on SN.

However, it came to my attention that, as much as people glaze it, there's still some reports here of attempts that go... Rather not peacefully.
Initially, this threw me off as I seek primarily a peaceful way to CTB, and while it seemed I had lost what looked like to be my holy grail, I came to the conclusion that... Unless I get my hands on N, it's gonna hurt in some way. I'm trying to die after all.

So, here are, the pros and cons of a few methods I considered:

SN
+ Relatively easily to obtain for me;
+ Will not greatly mutilate my body;
+ Should be relatively peaceful compared to other methods (PPH says it's a 7/10 );
+ Is a less "barbaric" form of dying;
+ Has little repercussions in case of failure (according to PPH);
- vomiting;
- needs additional medication to increase chances of success;
- SI !! I don't have access to benzos and am a wimp;
- I don't really know where I could do it. Not at home, certainly.

Hanging
+ Can be very isolated;
+ Very easy;
- looks very painful, I feel like it'd be excruciating to suffocate;
- mutilates my body;
- psychological damage to whoever finds me is greater;
- failure can and most likely will lead to me becoming a vegetable.

Jumping
+ Accessible;
+ Possibly instantaneous!;
- will turn me into mush;
- will disturb civilians;
- possibly not instanteaneous with a chance I remain alive as a pile of mush.

Exit Bag
+ I've heard you don't feel a thing;
- kinda complicated;
- dangerous for whoever finds me;
- can go wrong and leave me as a vegetable.

Gun
+ Possibly instantaneous;
+ I can get my hands on one;
- Possibly not instanteaneous :( ;
- Can leave me as a vegetable.

I barely know about anything else. I'll probably settle with SN anyways. No pain no gain, whatever ugggh I'm sorry I'm just rambling at this point. I'm scared of guts and blood and damage to the body so I avoid allat. Thanks. gah. Stay safe.

 

[like_a_bird]

This might help narrow it down - what are you most concerned about? Ease of access? Leaving remains that are minimally distressing to others? Reliable effectiveness? For example, if most concerned about effectiveness and ease of access - jumping from a sufficient height seems to be as close to a guarantee as you can get. But this leaves the messiest remains.
Also, what about other gas methods? Carbon monoxide from burning charcoal or hydrogen sulfide from combining an insecticide with a household cleaner?

 

[the_seer]

Also, what about other gas methods? Carbon monoxide from burning charcoal or hydrogen sulfide from combining an insecticide with a household cleaner?

arent these usually dangerous to whoever finds me?

 

[Eudaimonic]

arent these usually dangerous to whoever finds me?

Yes, and especially the latter. CO can be contained better, I believe, but it's still dangerous for first responders, especially if there is no warning sign posted nearby.