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nextstepdeath
Student
- Sep 5, 2024
- 101
I am used to not being good enough, so my attempt must succeed, my attempt must be the best. It must be the best thing I ever achieve in life or it will all be pointless. I drank my body weight in alcohol again last night, feel too sick to do anything. Could attempt on the back of it but I need to be the best with it or its all for nothing.
Maxed out the number of calls i can make to Samaritans so that's out for a while. My death will be celebrated, my death will be indifferent, my death will be remembered by people who will say 'I dodged a bullet with him, what a relief!'
All I can feel is how hated I am.
I struggle with the term catch the bus. I've been suicidal ever since I threw myself under a bus.
Maxed out the number of calls i can make to Samaritans so that's out for a while. My death will be celebrated, my death will be indifferent, my death will be remembered by people who will say 'I dodged a bullet with him, what a relief!'
All I can feel is how hated I am.
I struggle with the term catch the bus. I've been suicidal ever since I threw myself under a bus.
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